Mar 16, 2006 15:19
today was one of the most sorrow-filled days at red lion. matt barshinger shot and killed himself last night. matt was like one of the most well liked seniors. he was a jock and had such a bubbly personality. even the people that didn't know him bawled their eyes out. at school we could skip whatever class we wanted to so i did. me london chad kylie and toya just walked around a lot. we wanted to see matt's picture hanging in the lobby. that had to be one of the times that ive cried the most. he wasn't one of those kids to just go out and kill himself. well no one thought he would. a lot of people think he did because last week he got kicked off the track team for a DUI and got his track and baseball scholarships taken away. chad told me that he didn't have a good childhood either so thats probably another big reason. im pretty sure ed kyser found him dead in his car & ed's his best friend so that had to probably be like the most devestating thing he's ever had to do. and then matt young, matt b's other best friend wasn't doing good at all. i heard he was taking it all pretty hard.
when i first walked in this morning with heather we see all these people hugging and crying and we were all like omg someone had to have died. and then i went to my locker and i saw london and cacey talking to chad and some other kid who's name i cant remember but hes real hot and then they both covered their mouths like they were in total shock. then they came up to me and i was like whats wrong? and cacey whispered to me that matt barshinger shot and killed himself. i was like what!? and london repeated it. i was like no way. then i saw chad come up to us and he was bawling. i honestly couldn't believe it. then after that london started to cry hysterically & then she told me that her parents are getting a divorce and she wants to sleepover tonight so she doesn't have to deal with that. then i walked into homeroom and saw cameron and he asked me if i was okay and i was like yeah and he hugged me. i love him. and then the rest of the day was absolutely quiet. honestly no one made a sound in the halls. i cried in a couple classes that i actually went to because the teachers were all talking about it and it made me sad. & now it honestly feels so different because like i remember seeing his face and stuff and like now i know im not going to anymore. i guess if i pass his picture everyday but thats it. god bless.
cameron xo <3