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I have had my own little revolution with myself. I don't want life to be the way it is. I wanna be Alisa the nice, innocent, christian girl that I have always been known for. I want to gain back trust in people and I refuse to let my reputation go down the drain. The weekend has done a lot for me and I am going to be strong this time. No giving up. I do however, wish people were here to help. I am still just so unsure about things. And people (the once boy) is being dumb and selfish once again. I don't deserve to know why though. His actions back up what he says so much. What ever I have to learn not to care. Not sure how things are going with Mr. Gorgeous. He has stayed gorgeous thats for sure. But I am just holding back because I am just unsure and scared of getting hurt and his life still revolves around his ex. But I guess him and I being in the same boat we can help each other. I want to be different. I want to help my friends, and I want to be the example that I once used to be. I hope this attempt is successful... Life hasn't been all that nice to me lately so all I can do it cross my fingers and pray <- I wanna pray! I miss GOD! There's going ot be a change in the wind, I can just sense it.
I will tell you about the weekend later... Tho only parts of it were amazing, and then parts were horrible but You get an over view! Even if you don't want one... LOL!
LOVE YA! BYE!
I will tell you about the weekend later... Tho only parts of it were amazing, and then parts were horrible but You get an over view! Even if you don't want one... LOL!
LOVE YA! BYE!