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My life has been similar to a dream.
I just feel like I am walking around
in someone else's life.
I am either doing things that just
aren't me and suprising myself,
OR things are happening that I have
just never been through and so its
a new experience.
My gramps looked old but not sick,
My gramps was still his funny,
talkative self,
I LOVE MY GRAMPS,
Spent the whole weekend (Thusday-Saturday)
@ the hospital by his side.
I really do love him so much.
But I don't want him to suffer.
So should I hope for his death?
Is it selfish that I want him to
stay around when he is sick?
Life is full of questions,
most unanswered!
I hope my group of friends doesn't
start to become drama.
Thats all I am going to say.
I just want us all to be happy!
Guys are so weird to me right now.
There are so many guys that I could
like and prolly date but I don't want to.
I met a boy yesterday that Desi is
trying to hook me up with.
I don't know if I have a type but
I don't think he is mine.
I don't know if I can have a type
when I don't know who I am.
If that makes any sense at all.
There are many guys that possible
I could fall for.
But I won't let myself.
Maybe I am holding on to the past.
I guess I am just confused in all
aspects of my oh so wonderful life.
I talked Andrew last night!
Man I miss kentucky.
He made me realize of crap
life is right now.
I am just blinded to it I guess.
Blinded to everything right now.
Tho the numbness of right
and wrong is going away.
I can feel it again.
I am conscience of it!
Talk to Eric last night too!
Man he is smart.
HOTT AND SMART and on a level
with God that I wish I was.
What more could you ask for?
To bad he is still stuck on his ex
and me as well.
Who knows only God knows the future.
He made me feel better.
I got to go to sleep with out
my conscience digging a
hole in my heart
with guilt.
It feels good to feel guilty.
As strange as that might sound.
ALRIGHT! ♥ LOVE!
I just feel like I am walking around
in someone else's life.
I am either doing things that just
aren't me and suprising myself,
OR things are happening that I have
just never been through and so its
a new experience.
My gramps looked old but not sick,
My gramps was still his funny,
talkative self,
I LOVE MY GRAMPS,
Spent the whole weekend (Thusday-Saturday)
@ the hospital by his side.
I really do love him so much.
But I don't want him to suffer.
So should I hope for his death?
Is it selfish that I want him to
stay around when he is sick?
Life is full of questions,
most unanswered!
I hope my group of friends doesn't
start to become drama.
Thats all I am going to say.
I just want us all to be happy!
Guys are so weird to me right now.
There are so many guys that I could
like and prolly date but I don't want to.
I met a boy yesterday that Desi is
trying to hook me up with.
I don't know if I have a type but
I don't think he is mine.
I don't know if I can have a type
when I don't know who I am.
If that makes any sense at all.
There are many guys that possible
I could fall for.
But I won't let myself.
Maybe I am holding on to the past.
I guess I am just confused in all
aspects of my oh so wonderful life.
I talked Andrew last night!
Man I miss kentucky.
He made me realize of crap
life is right now.
I am just blinded to it I guess.
Blinded to everything right now.
Tho the numbness of right
and wrong is going away.
I can feel it again.
I am conscience of it!
Talk to Eric last night too!
Man he is smart.
HOTT AND SMART and on a level
with God that I wish I was.
What more could you ask for?
To bad he is still stuck on his ex
and me as well.
Who knows only God knows the future.
He made me feel better.
I got to go to sleep with out
my conscience digging a
hole in my heart
with guilt.
It feels good to feel guilty.
As strange as that might sound.
ALRIGHT! ♥ LOVE!