On the front of the Kashtta, there is a small heap of angles, knotted hair, and tattered clothes. It's up against the Kashtta's wall, one hand pressed flat against the building's wall and face totally obscured by tangles. For a good few minutes, it doesn't move, but then with a small gasp, the hand balls into a fist, hits the wall, then uncurls
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Iris, right. The one who had the strange notes in the journals. (He doesn't think--is totally not thinking about his own accidental notes, now locked down and locked down hard. That shouldn't have happened. But despite the emphatic not-thinking-about-it, his shoulders twitch ( ... )
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She's also aware of that twitch, and maybe it's just nerves in general but she thought she'd heard something about angels hiding their wings and that being painful, and she's a beat away from saying it's okay, you don't have to do that around me, but thinks better of it. For all she knows, that's a highly socially inappropriate thing to say. Even if-- especially if-- she'd have an ulterior motive for saying it. If she were an angel, she'd never hide her wings. They're far too pretty ( ... )
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"You should stop by," she says with a smile. "I'm sure they're willing to have people who aren't Wanderers take them, since they've just got so many. They're teleporting, immortal kittens, too, apparently."
Oh, no, she most definitely would not have said that if she knew what Kaden was like.
"It's not?" It's another distracted comment, and normally any other time she would have been interested in that, because she knows nothing of the world beyond Chicago. It feels to her, these days, like Chicago is her world, its boundaries the boundaries of all accessible existence. It's a feeling that has precedence. Her last and only prior home had been ( ... )
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Circling her shoulders doesn't help her, either, but she feels like it should just the same.
He's faded out the conversation, making it quick, and she's grateful for that, so grateful. She guesses he senses her urgency, and she's right about that. The only difference in truth is that she thinks that he's being polite.
He's so nice, she thinks, even if I can barely stay civil. I really am going to have to speak with him some other time, about something that isn't just this. Just to make him feel better. Feel like this wasn't all I wanted.But right now, that's not an option. She leans her elbows on the table and props her forehead in her ( ... )
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Maybe he needs to take Molly up on that torture session soon. Or work on Lily. Or something. Maybe he just needs to go to work.
He takes a drag on the cigarette, thinking about what she's said, and about what she hasn't. It's the hasn't that he's more interested in. What she's really getting at. Where she's lying, where she's telling the truth. What her ulterior motive is; it's obvious, now, that there is one. He can see the need in her face.
"Well, angelic status is hereditary, though they're still looking into the source of the Callings -- that's not what you're asking." Another drag, and one hand goes up to absently knead at his shoulder, fingers pressing hard against the muscles. "But I suppose it is possible the Rift ( ... )
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"I-- my wings." Not that they're her wings, not that she has them, but they're so clear in her mind now. And she likes the way it feels, to call them hers. It eases the pain a little.
"It's like there's-- something that wants to come out," and she reaches around to touch her back, at that, less to show him than because she needs to, and gods she needs to, watching him all twitchy-- "but... I can't... there's nothing, you know? Not really, it just... feels like there is ( ... )
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At first, he doesn't say anything to reply, just tilts his head at her as though studying an animal. In a way, he is, though he makes sure he gets to know most of his personal projects. Even the subjects at work he spends a little time reading up on, learning their names, figuring out who they are, even if they never know who he is. He'd prefer that to be different, but safety does occasionally have to come before science ( ... )
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It's cold. Cold like angel, but moreover like lancing, stabbing shock, her nerves sensitised from hyperfocus and whatever part of this isn't purely wanting, isn't just her thinking herself into a delirious state of need.
"Yes, it--" She winces through the words, a clear break in her voice. "It hurts. It hurts where you touch." She takes a deep breath, tries to gather herself, because that's not quite what she means, and she wants to be accurate. "Not... not quite pain. But...." She fumbles for the word, in all her spinning. Too much, breaking down, it's-- "Overload. I feel overloaded. My shoulder blades, there's-- too much pressure."
She's so close to crying let them out, so close to just... crying. He can take a knife to her if he has to. Just hearing about how it feels for an angel, what it's like to have wings come in, and the touching. It's pressure from both sides. ( ... )
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So she swallows her tears when he says you're not one of us, though she can't still her shaking. It's too much to face right now. But I, she almost begins to stammer, but I felt it, so real, but she holds herself back. If she speaks, the tears will come. She just nods, like it's okay, even though it's anything but.
But then he's throwing her another lifeline, a golden shining thread of hope, and she'll be cursed if she doesn't clutch it, with everything she's got. The small still shock of it, not everything, but something, is enough to bolster her, to give her the strength to force words out of her closed-up throat ( ... )
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