[locked] Out of the doubt that fills my mind I somehow find you and I collide
Lilly's waiting inside the bar Rachel directed her to. She's already ordered a beer - without deciding yet how she's going to pay for it, but fuck it, she needs a beer right now - and is sitting there, sipping slowly. She will allow herself three. Enough to feel a buzz, not enough to get drunk.
Never enough to get drunk.
Lilly's worried. Her eyes and expression are dreary and tired. That CLF fuck didn't respond to her last comment to him and she doesn't know if it means he just got sick of playing or if she hit on something. She needs to talk to people. She needs to get more information. She needs to not stay up all night in one of the Tower's commonrooms watching sports and news while she tries to not think. She needs to accept that she's actually here. She needs to stop having these - these pictures in her head. She needs--
She needs another drink.
She hopes somehow that Rachel will have a solution for the ... not being able to pay thing.
Never enough to get drunk.
Lilly's worried. Her eyes and expression are dreary and tired. That CLF fuck didn't respond to her last comment to him and she doesn't know if it means he just got sick of playing or if she hit on something. She needs to talk to people. She needs to get more information. She needs to not stay up all night in one of the Tower's commonrooms watching sports and news while she tries to not think. She needs to accept that she's actually here. She needs to stop having these - these pictures in her head. She needs--
She needs another drink.
She hopes somehow that Rachel will have a solution for the ... not being able to pay thing.