concience is killing
i feel horrible. yesturday i was at a theme park with one of my best friends Jen. Jen and i have an odd friendship because we have all the qualities of a relationship with the title of a friendship. I know that Jen really likes me a lot. And after my senior year of high school Jen and i are moving to Las Vegas together. That is how serious i am about her. But a few days ago i was at water country with this girl Tricia. Tricia jumped on my back and i was giving her a piggy back ride when we were walking next to the great wave pool. i acted like i was about to throw her in just to scare here. she screamed and i laughed and then i kept walking. and she bit me on the side of the neck because i scared her. she had no place else to bite. Well i told you that story to tell you this one.
Yesturday when i was with Jen she saw the bite mark and asked where it came from and i lied to her. i made up some lame excuse(extremely lame) because i know that if she knew that some other girl was biting my neck she'd get jealous or offended. and i didn't want her to be hurt in any way. but now i've lied to my best friend and i can't even describe how i'm feeling. it feels like a sharp pain. i've never lied to the girl once since the day i met her and now this... I could have told her the truth and then explained it because i wasn't doing anything premiscuous with Tricia, it wasn't like we made out and she gave me a hicky. she just did it to piss me off because i scared her.
i seriously do hope to God that one day Jen will read this because i want her to know but i am just to weak to tell her.
Yesturday when i was with Jen she saw the bite mark and asked where it came from and i lied to her. i made up some lame excuse(extremely lame) because i know that if she knew that some other girl was biting my neck she'd get jealous or offended. and i didn't want her to be hurt in any way. but now i've lied to my best friend and i can't even describe how i'm feeling. it feels like a sharp pain. i've never lied to the girl once since the day i met her and now this... I could have told her the truth and then explained it because i wasn't doing anything premiscuous with Tricia, it wasn't like we made out and she gave me a hicky. she just did it to piss me off because i scared her.
i seriously do hope to God that one day Jen will read this because i want her to know but i am just to weak to tell her.