hello..
so it's been awhile...
the combination of vodka on my computer and then a lost computer cord has kept me offline since dec.
i thought i would go crazy without the internet, but i didn't really miss it.
well, not until today.
i got bored/lonely and decided to rejoin the world for a while
i miss everybody a lot. i'm really excited to move back. but i'm also excited to move back b/c i haven't really kept in touch with anybody and i'll have a chance to meet entirely new people again.
my life has changed drastically in the past year. i finally achieved what i spent nineteen years working towards which is happiness and contentness with my own place in life. i still struggle with my emotions and with myself, but i know who i am and i know how to control my mood swings now better than ever. most if not all of my stresses are external now
i'm in a nursing class which is the easist thing i've ever done, and i decided today that after i take these and go back to kc i'm going to work on getting good jobs and saving money so that eventually i can do what i wanted to do almost my whole life- go to law school.
when i go back to kck and get my associates in nursing i'll be making plenty of money so that i'll be able to pay for schoool with no debate, no strings attached and just do school and work so that i can get to what i really want to do.
it feels funny to write about myself like this, as i haven't talked to anybody that reads this in ages. youa re all strangers now, and thank god i am. perhaps i'll have the chance to reunite friendships with some of you, though hopefully they'll be different now. well, they will be different b/c i am different.
*sigh* it's 3am, the time when i used to find the best companionship online - maybe a sign of us all growing old and going seperate ways with actual lives that there isn't anybody on that i really want to talk to.
hope everyones lives are well. you all should drop me a line. i think i'm going to turn my phone off friday, but i'll get ahold of you all somehow.
ash, this summer you kim and i have to chill. i miss you, the only person who could ever empathize with me throughout my mental battle and high school. i love you,and am glad i'll get to see you soon.
have fun everybody.
the combination of vodka on my computer and then a lost computer cord has kept me offline since dec.
i thought i would go crazy without the internet, but i didn't really miss it.
well, not until today.
i got bored/lonely and decided to rejoin the world for a while
i miss everybody a lot. i'm really excited to move back. but i'm also excited to move back b/c i haven't really kept in touch with anybody and i'll have a chance to meet entirely new people again.
my life has changed drastically in the past year. i finally achieved what i spent nineteen years working towards which is happiness and contentness with my own place in life. i still struggle with my emotions and with myself, but i know who i am and i know how to control my mood swings now better than ever. most if not all of my stresses are external now
i'm in a nursing class which is the easist thing i've ever done, and i decided today that after i take these and go back to kc i'm going to work on getting good jobs and saving money so that eventually i can do what i wanted to do almost my whole life- go to law school.
when i go back to kck and get my associates in nursing i'll be making plenty of money so that i'll be able to pay for schoool with no debate, no strings attached and just do school and work so that i can get to what i really want to do.
it feels funny to write about myself like this, as i haven't talked to anybody that reads this in ages. youa re all strangers now, and thank god i am. perhaps i'll have the chance to reunite friendships with some of you, though hopefully they'll be different now. well, they will be different b/c i am different.
*sigh* it's 3am, the time when i used to find the best companionship online - maybe a sign of us all growing old and going seperate ways with actual lives that there isn't anybody on that i really want to talk to.
hope everyones lives are well. you all should drop me a line. i think i'm going to turn my phone off friday, but i'll get ahold of you all somehow.
ash, this summer you kim and i have to chill. i miss you, the only person who could ever empathize with me throughout my mental battle and high school. i love you,and am glad i'll get to see you soon.
have fun everybody.