Feels like home...
After a very long pause, I'm back.... and it feels great. This past week or so I've been catching up with old/new friends, and I've started to do the traditional look back on 'The Year That Was'. Without fail, every December I take a stroll down memory lane. I stop, pick some memories up, dust it off, reflect, and then continue on. It helps me to remember what's really important, and it gives me a chance to really look at the lessons I've learnt over the past year.
What I have taken from this recent look back is that I haven't been very true to myself creatively. Yes, I accomplished a major personal success with finishing my spn fic Prayer In The Night. It was the very first and only time I have written something so lengthy, and I actually finished it. I am so proud of myself, and I know that it will remain a favourite fic of mine because it meant so much to me... but I'm dying to do it again. Whether it be another spn fic or an original work - I look forward to the challenge again.
Having said that though, I've been so creatively dry it's not funny. I haven't touched my journal (online or hardcopy) in so long that I think there is dust on it. It's a shame, because this is something important to me, and every time I have thought to do it I've said, 'Meh, I can't be bothered'. That has to change. I have to MAKE myself care. Because the thing that has replaced journalling is status updates. I was twitter mad for a while because the people on my facebook annoyed me, but then I got tired of twitter and I got sick of responding to a thousand other tweets from other people and having no one respond to any of my questions. Sounds spoilt I know, but it's more like I started to feel invisible and a little lonely. With journalling it's different. If people comment it's great, but it's not the response that drives me. So I gave twitter up recently. Facebook is sure to go again soon, but one thing I don't want to move away from is LJ. I love the people here, I love reading all the different view points and the fandom, I love the pretties... but most of all I love the creativity here. It's daily inspiration - and I've missed that.
My life has been pretty dull the last couple of months. I'm so focused on work and saving money so I can move back to Sydney, that it hasn't really left energy for anything else. I watch a lot of shows online late at night (recent obsession = Ghost Adventures), but I haven't really fangirl-ed much because the show I did obsess about has bored me lately. I'm sorry Supernatural, but I'm starting to think you should have stayed dead and not come back for a season 6. I'm still watching it every week, but I've lost the enthusiasm and excitement for it. I miss season 2 Dean and Sam. I miss the possibility of a Harvelle appearance. I miss the angst of season 4. I loved every second of the Angel and apocalypse season 5 - but season six.... well it's a shell of what it used to be. (Sigh) Anyway, I've complained enough about that. Let's move on shall we?
So here I am, I'm back, and I'm going to start forcing myself to make time for writing again. I'm going to start making a solid effort from here on out!
What I have taken from this recent look back is that I haven't been very true to myself creatively. Yes, I accomplished a major personal success with finishing my spn fic Prayer In The Night. It was the very first and only time I have written something so lengthy, and I actually finished it. I am so proud of myself, and I know that it will remain a favourite fic of mine because it meant so much to me... but I'm dying to do it again. Whether it be another spn fic or an original work - I look forward to the challenge again.
Having said that though, I've been so creatively dry it's not funny. I haven't touched my journal (online or hardcopy) in so long that I think there is dust on it. It's a shame, because this is something important to me, and every time I have thought to do it I've said, 'Meh, I can't be bothered'. That has to change. I have to MAKE myself care. Because the thing that has replaced journalling is status updates. I was twitter mad for a while because the people on my facebook annoyed me, but then I got tired of twitter and I got sick of responding to a thousand other tweets from other people and having no one respond to any of my questions. Sounds spoilt I know, but it's more like I started to feel invisible and a little lonely. With journalling it's different. If people comment it's great, but it's not the response that drives me. So I gave twitter up recently. Facebook is sure to go again soon, but one thing I don't want to move away from is LJ. I love the people here, I love reading all the different view points and the fandom, I love the pretties... but most of all I love the creativity here. It's daily inspiration - and I've missed that.
My life has been pretty dull the last couple of months. I'm so focused on work and saving money so I can move back to Sydney, that it hasn't really left energy for anything else. I watch a lot of shows online late at night (recent obsession = Ghost Adventures), but I haven't really fangirl-ed much because the show I did obsess about has bored me lately. I'm sorry Supernatural, but I'm starting to think you should have stayed dead and not come back for a season 6. I'm still watching it every week, but I've lost the enthusiasm and excitement for it. I miss season 2 Dean and Sam. I miss the possibility of a Harvelle appearance. I miss the angst of season 4. I loved every second of the Angel and apocalypse season 5 - but season six.... well it's a shell of what it used to be. (Sigh) Anyway, I've complained enough about that. Let's move on shall we?
So here I am, I'm back, and I'm going to start forcing myself to make time for writing again. I'm going to start making a solid effort from here on out!