FML! FML!
Major rant about family below... you probably don't want to read it, I just needed to let off some steam because I was shaking mad!
I hate, I repeat, I HATE living in Hay! I hate living with my stupid mother and my asshat dad. Nope I think i hate my mother more! She is such a goddam cow! She treats me like I'm five, expects me to drop everything to do whatever she wants. I put up with her shit for a whole week while we were on vacation and my friends all thought I was crazy to put up with it. In front of one of my friends she totally said one thing and then started yelling at me when I followed her instructions. Apparently when she changes her mind, I'm supposed to read her mind and know everything she is thinking, even if i'm in a different town! Two of my friends wanted to pull mum up and say something but they couldn't because it would have made her go psycho!
As soon as we got back from Sydney she has just keeps pushing my buttons!! This morning after I served HER breakfast in bed, she says, "Are you going to hurry up and go to centrelink?" (It's an unemployment agency as I have just shut my business down because of the economy and right now I have no income)Anyway, so I said, "Um, no. I have a long list of stuff I have to do today and it's about number 3 on the list". She pulls this massive face that said, 'yeah right' and I just couldn't be bothered dealing with her objections so I just left and got on with my errands.
She checked up on me three times today to see if I had done it (which i had).
Then this afternoon she comes into my room after she's been sitting on her big fat butt allllll day doing absolutely NOTHING and *tells* me, "Guess what time it is? It's time for you to take the dog for a walk."
I said, "I will in a minute" and she says, "No, do it now." So I was cheesed off but got the leash and she decides she is coming with me.
So Im walking along happily, and she starts in on me: "Are you going to tell me why you are so angry?" in this tone where I just know this is a start of a long and emotionally charged fight.
So i start to explain to her in a calm, civil way that I don't like her bossing me around and treating me like a child and that I am 26 and I am in charge of what I do and when I do it, and that while I appreciate that she is letting me live with her for free and helping me with bills, it does not mean that I have to remain obedient forever.
Her response is to get all angry and sarcastic and she snarls, "Yeah, whatever".
I think that's when I burst some kind of blood vessel because all of a sudden blood starts gushing down my nose and across my face. I madly try to catch it all and ask her if she has a tissue, but she just keeps on walking across the street, and tells me to hurry up. I said, "Wait, we need to go back to the house" because I was feeling woosey. And she actually rolled her eyes and says, "Just give me the dog and I'll take her."
I didn't want to, because for some reason I felt attached to the dog and didn't want to be just left on my own on the walk back to house and I said, "No. Lets just go home first" and she sighs and waves at me to come over to her across the street, and I turn my back and said, "I NEED to go home first my nose is fucking bleeding everywhere" and she goes, "Whatever, I'm still walking, and the dog still needs a walk." I was furious (she cares more about the dog going for a walk that the fact that i'm bleeding all over the sidewalk). It started to get hard to breathe (i think because i was so angry) and I started feeling sick and so I barely made it back to the house. There was blood everywhere once i finally got it to stop I started trying to wash it off. Well the dog just sits by my side loyally and licks my ankle - and after feeling really dizzy I lie down in the hallway, because its the darkest and coolest park of the house.
Mum comes home ten mins later, walks OVER the top of me, and says, "Why haven't you taken the dog back out for a walk yet?" and I tell her, "I will in a minute I just feel dizzy" and she says, "Yeah, sure, i like that you laid in the hallway for maximum effect, - forget it i'll take her for a walk." Then she storms out of the house with the dog.
WTF!?!?!?! Am I being the crazy one? What the hell is wrong with her? Where did my nice sweet mum go? She has turned into a mean bitch! I can't believe her, she gets so much as a little headache and I have to run to her side and bring her blankets and tea and medicine, but I fucking have a bloody nose and almost pass out and she DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT!
Maybe this is fates way of saying, "Get the fuck out now! Start running!" I tell you - I am shaking mad. She has done nothing, absolutely nothing all day. I've been in and out of the storage centre, been to the recyling centre, gone to the shops so she can have a nice dinner and get bread and milk because i seem to be the only one capable in my whole family, and the post office and been to centrelink offices and then back on the phone and applying for jobs... it's like WTF man?
And the fact that she has been saying that, "Oh you father wants you to hurry up and move out, hes really mad that your still here. He thinks I sugar coat everything for you and I'm too nice to you so now I'm going to do tough love." Part of me is furious, cause why the frick can't he man up and say that to my FACE and the other part of me is thinking, 'I bet she made that all up'. It's not the first time she makes little stories up. She exaggerates EVERYTHING. If you say, 'I'll pick you up in ten mins' and you arrive in 9mins, she will bitch and tell everyone how she had to wait 40mins for you to finally arrive.
I'm sick of it. I'm so mad. I wish she'd look at herself in the mirror and realize what a bitch she is being. I wish she'd stop treating me like her slave. I wish that if my dad had something to say, he'd say it to my FACE!
Dad just came in all happy and there was no mention of the fact that apparently he's 'mad' at me. I told him what happened about my nose bleed and he just shrugged and walked off and then said, 'We need bread' to which i told him I had already gone and got it. Now i can hear mum talking to dad out the front and i bet TEN BUCKS she tells him a twisted version of what just happened.... and he'll believe HER!
I hate that she makes me feel so down! She just walked in and said, "Are you feeling better yet?" and I said, "Yes thank you" and she rolls her eyes and slams my door shut. OMG. I bet she is going to be a drama all night now. Well she can cook her own fucking dinner. After driving home for ten hours last night (she didn't drive ANY of it), she made me clean up and do the dishes while she sat and watch tv. AHHHHHHHH!
Okay. Deep breaths. I am going to go make myself some dinner and not make hers. She can fucking starve. At least I feel a tiny bit better for getting that off my chest.
I hate, I repeat, I HATE living in Hay! I hate living with my stupid mother and my asshat dad. Nope I think i hate my mother more! She is such a goddam cow! She treats me like I'm five, expects me to drop everything to do whatever she wants. I put up with her shit for a whole week while we were on vacation and my friends all thought I was crazy to put up with it. In front of one of my friends she totally said one thing and then started yelling at me when I followed her instructions. Apparently when she changes her mind, I'm supposed to read her mind and know everything she is thinking, even if i'm in a different town! Two of my friends wanted to pull mum up and say something but they couldn't because it would have made her go psycho!
As soon as we got back from Sydney she has just keeps pushing my buttons!! This morning after I served HER breakfast in bed, she says, "Are you going to hurry up and go to centrelink?" (It's an unemployment agency as I have just shut my business down because of the economy and right now I have no income)Anyway, so I said, "Um, no. I have a long list of stuff I have to do today and it's about number 3 on the list". She pulls this massive face that said, 'yeah right' and I just couldn't be bothered dealing with her objections so I just left and got on with my errands.
She checked up on me three times today to see if I had done it (which i had).
Then this afternoon she comes into my room after she's been sitting on her big fat butt allllll day doing absolutely NOTHING and *tells* me, "Guess what time it is? It's time for you to take the dog for a walk."
I said, "I will in a minute" and she says, "No, do it now." So I was cheesed off but got the leash and she decides she is coming with me.
So Im walking along happily, and she starts in on me: "Are you going to tell me why you are so angry?" in this tone where I just know this is a start of a long and emotionally charged fight.
So i start to explain to her in a calm, civil way that I don't like her bossing me around and treating me like a child and that I am 26 and I am in charge of what I do and when I do it, and that while I appreciate that she is letting me live with her for free and helping me with bills, it does not mean that I have to remain obedient forever.
Her response is to get all angry and sarcastic and she snarls, "Yeah, whatever".
I think that's when I burst some kind of blood vessel because all of a sudden blood starts gushing down my nose and across my face. I madly try to catch it all and ask her if she has a tissue, but she just keeps on walking across the street, and tells me to hurry up. I said, "Wait, we need to go back to the house" because I was feeling woosey. And she actually rolled her eyes and says, "Just give me the dog and I'll take her."
I didn't want to, because for some reason I felt attached to the dog and didn't want to be just left on my own on the walk back to house and I said, "No. Lets just go home first" and she sighs and waves at me to come over to her across the street, and I turn my back and said, "I NEED to go home first my nose is fucking bleeding everywhere" and she goes, "Whatever, I'm still walking, and the dog still needs a walk." I was furious (she cares more about the dog going for a walk that the fact that i'm bleeding all over the sidewalk). It started to get hard to breathe (i think because i was so angry) and I started feeling sick and so I barely made it back to the house. There was blood everywhere once i finally got it to stop I started trying to wash it off. Well the dog just sits by my side loyally and licks my ankle - and after feeling really dizzy I lie down in the hallway, because its the darkest and coolest park of the house.
Mum comes home ten mins later, walks OVER the top of me, and says, "Why haven't you taken the dog back out for a walk yet?" and I tell her, "I will in a minute I just feel dizzy" and she says, "Yeah, sure, i like that you laid in the hallway for maximum effect, - forget it i'll take her for a walk." Then she storms out of the house with the dog.
WTF!?!?!?! Am I being the crazy one? What the hell is wrong with her? Where did my nice sweet mum go? She has turned into a mean bitch! I can't believe her, she gets so much as a little headache and I have to run to her side and bring her blankets and tea and medicine, but I fucking have a bloody nose and almost pass out and she DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT!
Maybe this is fates way of saying, "Get the fuck out now! Start running!" I tell you - I am shaking mad. She has done nothing, absolutely nothing all day. I've been in and out of the storage centre, been to the recyling centre, gone to the shops so she can have a nice dinner and get bread and milk because i seem to be the only one capable in my whole family, and the post office and been to centrelink offices and then back on the phone and applying for jobs... it's like WTF man?
And the fact that she has been saying that, "Oh you father wants you to hurry up and move out, hes really mad that your still here. He thinks I sugar coat everything for you and I'm too nice to you so now I'm going to do tough love." Part of me is furious, cause why the frick can't he man up and say that to my FACE and the other part of me is thinking, 'I bet she made that all up'. It's not the first time she makes little stories up. She exaggerates EVERYTHING. If you say, 'I'll pick you up in ten mins' and you arrive in 9mins, she will bitch and tell everyone how she had to wait 40mins for you to finally arrive.
I'm sick of it. I'm so mad. I wish she'd look at herself in the mirror and realize what a bitch she is being. I wish she'd stop treating me like her slave. I wish that if my dad had something to say, he'd say it to my FACE!
Dad just came in all happy and there was no mention of the fact that apparently he's 'mad' at me. I told him what happened about my nose bleed and he just shrugged and walked off and then said, 'We need bread' to which i told him I had already gone and got it. Now i can hear mum talking to dad out the front and i bet TEN BUCKS she tells him a twisted version of what just happened.... and he'll believe HER!
I hate that she makes me feel so down! She just walked in and said, "Are you feeling better yet?" and I said, "Yes thank you" and she rolls her eyes and slams my door shut. OMG. I bet she is going to be a drama all night now. Well she can cook her own fucking dinner. After driving home for ten hours last night (she didn't drive ANY of it), she made me clean up and do the dishes while she sat and watch tv. AHHHHHHHH!
Okay. Deep breaths. I am going to go make myself some dinner and not make hers. She can fucking starve. At least I feel a tiny bit better for getting that off my chest.