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sooo i just found out my grandma down south died (for all of you who know me, it isn't the one that im close too, it's the other one)..
but i didn't know her that well, or at all actually.. so it doesn't take a big affect on me, but i feel bad for my family. <3<3<3
annnd i found out, my mom is not in good condition at all. my aunt went down there to see her ma before she died, and saw my mom (her sister) and i guess she isn't in great condition at all.. and now im beginning to feel really sad about that. she needs to quit smoking, quit drinking, and fix up her life. she may be 47, but that doesn't mean she still can't help herself up. I hope i can see her before anything severe happens. sounds weird me talkin about my mother, but i guess i shoulda said something.
it's weird.. sitting here talking about her.. knowing that i never actually knew her. that i've lived with my dad my whole life. i mean, i remember things about her, but it's not enough to fill 16 years. i wish she hadn't made the stupid choices she did when she was with my dad. maybe now my dad would still be happy. i dont know what else to say.. but that.. i hope nothing too serious happens too soon..
it makes me wonder if i'd even cry if/when she leaves. i know that sounds horrible, and i agree. but i mean it's the truth.. i never knew her.. so who knows what would happen..? i would be sad, i know that.. but.. enough to cry?
..who knows what the future holds within itself..
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love to everybody
but i didn't know her that well, or at all actually.. so it doesn't take a big affect on me, but i feel bad for my family. <3<3<3
annnd i found out, my mom is not in good condition at all. my aunt went down there to see her ma before she died, and saw my mom (her sister) and i guess she isn't in great condition at all.. and now im beginning to feel really sad about that. she needs to quit smoking, quit drinking, and fix up her life. she may be 47, but that doesn't mean she still can't help herself up. I hope i can see her before anything severe happens. sounds weird me talkin about my mother, but i guess i shoulda said something.
it's weird.. sitting here talking about her.. knowing that i never actually knew her. that i've lived with my dad my whole life. i mean, i remember things about her, but it's not enough to fill 16 years. i wish she hadn't made the stupid choices she did when she was with my dad. maybe now my dad would still be happy. i dont know what else to say.. but that.. i hope nothing too serious happens too soon..
it makes me wonder if i'd even cry if/when she leaves. i know that sounds horrible, and i agree. but i mean it's the truth.. i never knew her.. so who knows what would happen..? i would be sad, i know that.. but.. enough to cry?
..who knows what the future holds within itself..
<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
love to everybody