1,2,3,4...
Sometimes at night I sit awake letting my mind wander where it will. Not that my mind does not go off on it's own quite a bit, but somehow at night when I am supposed to be still and quiet and at rest, my mind finds itself off in the oddest places keeping me from enjoying the sleep I so desperately crave.
I was an insomniac at 7 why should anything change in over 20 years.
I have had since as long as I can remember, set dreams. They are not really dreams, but more of scenarios, that I can play out in my brain and it puts me to sleep. Sort of like counting sheep or re reading your favorite book over and over. Only I get to change things as I see fit. Over the years the scenarios have remained fairly constant but the players in them have changed, the theme though is always roughly the same.
I find in times where my insomnia is not about I forget these scenarios almost completely. I use other methods to drift off to sleep, but nights like tonight I have need for my warm island in the sun.
How is it when I have only had four hours of sleep in two days and have to be up in 5 hours that I can possibly still be awake? How is it that common sense and my bodies own good sense has not taken me under?
I blame my brain...
I was an insomniac at 7 why should anything change in over 20 years.
I have had since as long as I can remember, set dreams. They are not really dreams, but more of scenarios, that I can play out in my brain and it puts me to sleep. Sort of like counting sheep or re reading your favorite book over and over. Only I get to change things as I see fit. Over the years the scenarios have remained fairly constant but the players in them have changed, the theme though is always roughly the same.
I find in times where my insomnia is not about I forget these scenarios almost completely. I use other methods to drift off to sleep, but nights like tonight I have need for my warm island in the sun.
How is it when I have only had four hours of sleep in two days and have to be up in 5 hours that I can possibly still be awake? How is it that common sense and my bodies own good sense has not taken me under?
I blame my brain...