torn to pieces
Everything seems to be working against me. Things were great with me & Tolga sunday and through the day monday but then it all fell apart, he let me down big time again. Im trying so hard to hold together the very little of what we have left & he doesnt seem to care. Ive had a really bad day with it & im just devestated that after such a wonderul day he could just turn on me. Ive noticed a pattern in his behaviour too. Everytime he lets me down he stays angry at me so i shout back and he gets to feel less bad coz im the BITCH! im not sure how this relationship can possibly have a future... its eating me up inside and im waiting for the day he changes to come and its not happening. I know he loves me, but its not enough. He cant express it in the right ways. This week im going to have to do some serious thinking and make sure i make the right decisions for me.
i cant go on being hurt.
i cant go on being hurt.