Thoughts at the moment.
I have brought back this journal to convey this single message which was dawned upon me tonight January 12th 2005 at roughly 8:50 PM. After trying to shorten it in order to fit into an away message I have decided to leave it to its entirety. Feel free to post upon it. While the journal will not contain how my life goes I will put down some thoughts here occasionaly if you choose to read it that is up to you. However the link will not be anywhere upon my AIM profile nor anywhere else, so if you wish to bookmark this site I shall encourage you to do so. This is just how I felt after I had hit a point in my life in which I reached where I was last year at this time and do not wish to do so again. I will not speak of the event that triggered these thoughts however to that one person that knows. Here is to you and forgetting the feelings I had once held onto for so long.
I am unable to further express myself or how I feel for those around me in any of the tongues that are able to be understood by any of mankind. I would not describe myself at the moment in a state of despair or depression, just with the inability to form coherent speech or expressions. But then I ask myself, what is life if not overcoming the series of challenges we not only face in life but the ones that we create for ourselves in our greed and our contempt for all that are more fortunate than ourselves? Dare we think of ourselves and our trivial problems when in Asia hundreds upon thousands are dying and would care for nothing more than a meal and a place to sleep? Let us stop these problems of those less fortunate so that we may one day become equal in our stature as we once were and therefore eliminate the differences we have created between us. This has been brought to light to me thanks to one whom I shall thank anonymously. And I will start to recognize the problems of others far greater than the insignificant ones that I have brought upon myself and start to or at least try to be a better person because of what I have learned. And try to help those with problems that I can in some way affect. If it not be by donating 20 dollars I have earned through the waste of time in which I call work or helping a friend with anything they choose to bring to me. To those of you who think of me as trying to noble myself or gain pity or praise from others through this statement of my beliefs I can offer you no more than what I am, and if you feel so strongly as to act upon your feelings against me I can so much as invite you to do so through any way you deem appropriate rather it be verbal or physical, know that I shall hold no grudge against you for it.
I am unable to further express myself or how I feel for those around me in any of the tongues that are able to be understood by any of mankind. I would not describe myself at the moment in a state of despair or depression, just with the inability to form coherent speech or expressions. But then I ask myself, what is life if not overcoming the series of challenges we not only face in life but the ones that we create for ourselves in our greed and our contempt for all that are more fortunate than ourselves? Dare we think of ourselves and our trivial problems when in Asia hundreds upon thousands are dying and would care for nothing more than a meal and a place to sleep? Let us stop these problems of those less fortunate so that we may one day become equal in our stature as we once were and therefore eliminate the differences we have created between us. This has been brought to light to me thanks to one whom I shall thank anonymously. And I will start to recognize the problems of others far greater than the insignificant ones that I have brought upon myself and start to or at least try to be a better person because of what I have learned. And try to help those with problems that I can in some way affect. If it not be by donating 20 dollars I have earned through the waste of time in which I call work or helping a friend with anything they choose to bring to me. To those of you who think of me as trying to noble myself or gain pity or praise from others through this statement of my beliefs I can offer you no more than what I am, and if you feel so strongly as to act upon your feelings against me I can so much as invite you to do so through any way you deem appropriate rather it be verbal or physical, know that I shall hold no grudge against you for it.