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I'm in Courtenay.
So glad to be here.... I was worried I wouldn't get the chance to come before christmas.
it's nice to sit around and talk together and watch movies together, and browse random TV shows, and watch Beauty and the Beast and laugh about all the logical fallicies... like the enchantress saying the rose would wilt on the prince's 21st year, but then Cogsworth says they haven't been able to serve properly for 10 years... so what, the prince was 11 when he turned away the old woman from his door? and Prince of what? and the new scene they added to the middle of the movie is so lame... all the servents walking around and singing about what it was like to be human while they cleaned the castle in the sunshine and it was all nice and pretty... I'm sorry, but the castle was supposed to be perpetually dark until the spell was lifted, wasn't it?
so illogical. There were many more, but Mar kept reminding me that they didn't intent it to relate at all to reality.
Taylor came to pick me up at the ferry... I met Santana on the bus to the boat... she was the only girl on Cortes who I hung out with for a while, and who I felt might actually like me and not have stabbed me in the back or pretended not to like me because I wasn't popular. I'd kinda forgotten about all that... not completely, but sorta. She had a baby in grade 11, and just last month she put her daughter into voluntary foster care in Campbell River. She's living in Delta with her cousin to get away from the life her family lives.. I remember visiting them on the reserve and it was always with the boozing, and she's trying to avoid that lifestyle now. She's working construction, 12 hour days, and she just couldn't do it and raise her daughter at the same time.
Taylor gave her a ride into Courtenay with me, then her family came to pick her up. Her brother remembered my name, it was so weird. I think his name's Justin. I haven't thought about any of that in forever.
It was nice talking to Taylor... we just fell in again like I'd never been gone. I love that. Hes so much fun.
I'm sleeping on the bunk above Mar and Taylor... it's nice.
Taylor and I babysat this 2 year old kid of one of Mar's co-workers yesterday... he was a pretty good kid, but we didn't have much for him to do. We had fun tho. He was totally in love with the little water dragon Aolos, the bearded dragon Reyu, and the snake, Al, but Taylor was worried that he'd kill them. lol.
I love Ryu and Al. Aolos is kinda tiny right now, but Mar says he'll grow to be about 2 feet, including his ginormously long tail, so his body'll prolly be about 8-10 inches. right now it's maybe 3-4 inches, and he's all cute and little with big huge eyes. Al's sleepy, as usual, and so pretty. A python. Ryu is a girl and she's a pretty reddish tan, all spiky, and she loves to run around the house. I want a bearded dragon! and a python...
anyway, I'm flying to Toronto tonight. I can't believe it. I'm catching the 7:00 ferry, then taking the bus into the airport, then at 11:43 I'm on my way to Phil's house for christmas.
I keep wanting to cry. I know it's stupid, cuz I love Phil and I love christmas and... and... *sigh*
I still want to cry.
I'm gonna be very weepy this christmas. I hope I can keep it under control tho. It's gotten harder to control my weepyness lately... I think it's cuz i don't have to protect anyone from it. Mom won't be sad if I cry.... she's not here to be sad... I dunno. it's all so complicated.
either way I'm going. and I'm going to have a good time, no matter what.
So glad to be here.... I was worried I wouldn't get the chance to come before christmas.
it's nice to sit around and talk together and watch movies together, and browse random TV shows, and watch Beauty and the Beast and laugh about all the logical fallicies... like the enchantress saying the rose would wilt on the prince's 21st year, but then Cogsworth says they haven't been able to serve properly for 10 years... so what, the prince was 11 when he turned away the old woman from his door? and Prince of what? and the new scene they added to the middle of the movie is so lame... all the servents walking around and singing about what it was like to be human while they cleaned the castle in the sunshine and it was all nice and pretty... I'm sorry, but the castle was supposed to be perpetually dark until the spell was lifted, wasn't it?
so illogical. There were many more, but Mar kept reminding me that they didn't intent it to relate at all to reality.
Taylor came to pick me up at the ferry... I met Santana on the bus to the boat... she was the only girl on Cortes who I hung out with for a while, and who I felt might actually like me and not have stabbed me in the back or pretended not to like me because I wasn't popular. I'd kinda forgotten about all that... not completely, but sorta. She had a baby in grade 11, and just last month she put her daughter into voluntary foster care in Campbell River. She's living in Delta with her cousin to get away from the life her family lives.. I remember visiting them on the reserve and it was always with the boozing, and she's trying to avoid that lifestyle now. She's working construction, 12 hour days, and she just couldn't do it and raise her daughter at the same time.
Taylor gave her a ride into Courtenay with me, then her family came to pick her up. Her brother remembered my name, it was so weird. I think his name's Justin. I haven't thought about any of that in forever.
It was nice talking to Taylor... we just fell in again like I'd never been gone. I love that. Hes so much fun.
I'm sleeping on the bunk above Mar and Taylor... it's nice.
Taylor and I babysat this 2 year old kid of one of Mar's co-workers yesterday... he was a pretty good kid, but we didn't have much for him to do. We had fun tho. He was totally in love with the little water dragon Aolos, the bearded dragon Reyu, and the snake, Al, but Taylor was worried that he'd kill them. lol.
I love Ryu and Al. Aolos is kinda tiny right now, but Mar says he'll grow to be about 2 feet, including his ginormously long tail, so his body'll prolly be about 8-10 inches. right now it's maybe 3-4 inches, and he's all cute and little with big huge eyes. Al's sleepy, as usual, and so pretty. A python. Ryu is a girl and she's a pretty reddish tan, all spiky, and she loves to run around the house. I want a bearded dragon! and a python...
anyway, I'm flying to Toronto tonight. I can't believe it. I'm catching the 7:00 ferry, then taking the bus into the airport, then at 11:43 I'm on my way to Phil's house for christmas.
I keep wanting to cry. I know it's stupid, cuz I love Phil and I love christmas and... and... *sigh*
I still want to cry.
I'm gonna be very weepy this christmas. I hope I can keep it under control tho. It's gotten harder to control my weepyness lately... I think it's cuz i don't have to protect anyone from it. Mom won't be sad if I cry.... she's not here to be sad... I dunno. it's all so complicated.
either way I'm going. and I'm going to have a good time, no matter what.