Anonymity is the privilege of youth (rejoinder)
I went to the clinic this morning it was dawning upon me I was ill I had a chill I took a pill a rush a gush a punch drunk punk the music in my head went hump pump jump I thought I’d gone to heaven.
An angel showed me told me said a man was dead his bloodshed head got bumped off dumped off what was his name who was to blame this twisted fame? In that state deranged demented I detested I denied I cried I couldn’t speak I cried I couldn’t squeak my eyes bled tears fears years I couldn’t understand fatality finality what happened to immortality? I couldn’t comprehend the fact of the matter a life gone ascatter a life gone asunder six feet under why can’t people live forever?
Let’s talk about you for one minute one moment one chance a second glance that last dance who would you see where would you be what would you say I love you goodbye.
If you could refrain retract recant rescind which smile would you unfake which heart would you unbreak which vow would you untake which promise would you unmake forsake? Which curse would you unswear which pride would you untear which shoe would you unwear on the other foot when you ran your father up the wall when you ran your fling your friend your Friday lover did you think that you’d be run down too? Which side would you unhide Jekyll and Hyde Bonnie and Clyde partners in crime one single mind were you the good cop or was I the bad cop? How much did you shoot up to boot up your drama my trauma your delusion my confusion how did I get you off set you off did you hope to be remembered as a saint or a stain on this house of cards?
I’m not sorry.
If you could return regret rethink reconsider would you make haste to taste the forbidden fruit or would you again waste that chance to be Eve to believe in Pandora’s jar of hope? Which piece of your mind did you leave behind which shard of that broken heart which strife in your life would you forget forego forever what shame how many names did they taunt haunt you? Who did you bare your soul your gaping hole to did he care did he share did he dare to make you feel tall small who did you want to be oh gee did you want to be me just own up you’ve been shown up did that thought make you throw up?
Were you just diffident or did you make a material difference your ethereal existence is just a figment a fig leaf that covered nothing more nothing less nothing short of the nothingness that you’ve achieved for anyone but you. If you were so judged how would you fudge would you retort contort distort purport would you repent or would you resent the blaming of the bitch the naming of the snitch the taming of the jew that shrew was you.
The music stopped I watched you fall down from up high I could tell we’re going to hell. I took a second to ruminate illuminate little did I suspect little did I expect how could I reject object no way could I protect that nameless man was me.
Okay, this should be the last time in a long time a long while that I write anything in this style.
An angel showed me told me said a man was dead his bloodshed head got bumped off dumped off what was his name who was to blame this twisted fame? In that state deranged demented I detested I denied I cried I couldn’t speak I cried I couldn’t squeak my eyes bled tears fears years I couldn’t understand fatality finality what happened to immortality? I couldn’t comprehend the fact of the matter a life gone ascatter a life gone asunder six feet under why can’t people live forever?
Let’s talk about you for one minute one moment one chance a second glance that last dance who would you see where would you be what would you say I love you goodbye.
If you could refrain retract recant rescind which smile would you unfake which heart would you unbreak which vow would you untake which promise would you unmake forsake? Which curse would you unswear which pride would you untear which shoe would you unwear on the other foot when you ran your father up the wall when you ran your fling your friend your Friday lover did you think that you’d be run down too? Which side would you unhide Jekyll and Hyde Bonnie and Clyde partners in crime one single mind were you the good cop or was I the bad cop? How much did you shoot up to boot up your drama my trauma your delusion my confusion how did I get you off set you off did you hope to be remembered as a saint or a stain on this house of cards?
I’m not sorry.
If you could return regret rethink reconsider would you make haste to taste the forbidden fruit or would you again waste that chance to be Eve to believe in Pandora’s jar of hope? Which piece of your mind did you leave behind which shard of that broken heart which strife in your life would you forget forego forever what shame how many names did they taunt haunt you? Who did you bare your soul your gaping hole to did he care did he share did he dare to make you feel tall small who did you want to be oh gee did you want to be me just own up you’ve been shown up did that thought make you throw up?
Were you just diffident or did you make a material difference your ethereal existence is just a figment a fig leaf that covered nothing more nothing less nothing short of the nothingness that you’ve achieved for anyone but you. If you were so judged how would you fudge would you retort contort distort purport would you repent or would you resent the blaming of the bitch the naming of the snitch the taming of the jew that shrew was you.
The music stopped I watched you fall down from up high I could tell we’re going to hell. I took a second to ruminate illuminate little did I suspect little did I expect how could I reject object no way could I protect that nameless man was me.
Okay, this should be the last time in a long time a long while that I write anything in this style.