If you really care to see...
This is what I posted in which I got rude comments back.
I can see that since you are in here right now looking at my ramblings on why I love and why I am dedicated to Brandon Boyd. As if you care. I have found a deep love and faith in Brandon Boyd. Mainly because of the fact that he is so intelligent and I have found that he, of all people I adore, is the most intriguing. The main things I adore in Brandon are: His art, intelligence, dedication for his fans, love in music, and how he likes to read, write, and draw. Maybe it's just me... but I think he is incredibly unique. He's not like many other people to me. His quotes in general amaze me on how fantastic he is. All of his tattoo's have something meaningful behind them! And many people don't have tattoo's on his body that have something meanginful behind them. One of his quotes from an interview that took me away made me want him badly. That quote was this:
I have always idolized eccentric people; old storytellers with scraggly beards, Sadhus covered in the ashes of their brothers, street performers, contortionists, mediums, magicians, painters and poets for example. They seemed to demonstrate to me the ideals that I could never find in amongst the throws of everyday life. And part of what intrigued me about this world of others was the fact that they didn't exist on the surface. You had to go 'below', so to speak, to find them. In books, rumors and shadowed corners was and is where they continue to thrive. It was in pursuit of these ideals which led me towards MUSIC and to the people I make music with. And by holding onto those things sacred to me and us we have been able to circumvent the conventionalism which frightened me into action in the first place.
Don't you see? Do you see how amazing he is, and how one can be so interested in him? Tonight I feel really imaginative, and creative. When I listen to their music, it sends a vibe through me that I can't feel any other time. When I hear his voice, it sends electroids through my mind of love, peace, and creation of human-beings. I know that may sound odd, but it's true. Another one of his quotes that I <3'd was:
"The girl I find who wants to talk about quantum theory in a bar is the one I want to marry."
I have, lately, been studying the Quantum Theory, and really how it all works. Only, when I turn 21... I want to have enough money to be able to spend a day with Brandon in a bar and take all the time in the world to be able to have that one conversation I have been dreaming about for at least 2 or 3 years. As young as I am, and as old as he is, to me... it really doesn't matter how old or young a person is to be in love. I don't personally know Brandon Boyd, but I would absolutely love to. I do believe in a thing called love. Right now I love Brandon Boyd. Love as in I want to marry him. But I am sure that sounds silly because there a world full of girls that want to marry Brandon. But... they don't understand. I don't just "love" Brandon for his looks. But for all the reasons I had brought up.
Brandon's art: His art is the most amazing art that I have seen. They are cartoon like, and still very creative. He wrote about all of his art meanings, and I find them very interesting into why and how he came up with the things he did. One of Brandon's art pieces I am getting done on my wall soon:
His meaning behind this piece of art is:
This is a rendition of 'Pan', the horned god of the old world. Here he is playing the song that attracts his befriended wood nymphs into frenzied sexual states! I don't know why I drew it; I was in Germany and horny... gimee a break!
Just things like that make him interesting.
Brandon's intelligence:
Just look at the man!
Brandon's thoughts:
*Drools* Sorry... I am only going to put quotes here that I like most. I love all of his quotes, they are funny, sick, and interesting. Heh. So... here they go-
Female artists are the perfect example of a creator: They know how to make life and art with their bodies. Life comes from their bodies, so on a very basic level, they have more to write about.
RS, on some of his favorite female artists such as Ani DiFranco and Bjork
And also... When we're making music together, it's like five men making love-in a very platonic sense. It's very erotic, because your spirits are intermingling, you're becoming one. It's also why it can get so heated. You're tapping into this electricity that's very primal.
citing reasons for the band's group therapy Spin (October 2001)
So, these are these are just a few points I wanted to make and get out. He is my idol, love, and god.
Then my mind went dark,
We both forgot where your car was parked.
Let's just take the train.
I'll meet up with the band in the morning
Bad actors, with bad habits...
Some sad singers, they just play tragic.
And the phone is ringing,
And the van is leaving
Let's just keep touching,
Let's just keep...keep singing
So... hopefully I can get the Brandon Boyd's book: White Fluffy Clouds. If I ever did... I am going to look at it with every moment I have when I am not doing something. It'll be my dream to someday have a conversation with Brandon Boyd.
Thank you all for taking the time to read this... if you did.
♥ Ellen.
P.S- I would die if Brandon actually read this and knew how I felt. <3