Miss Independence...
Well it has been forever since I last wrote. Very many things have changed since my last entry. I am an official college student, as I started my first day at U of A. I only had one class, so it was a pretty easy day. Tomorrow, though I have two so it might be a little more challenging. I am staying in a hotel room with my new house mate, Ida. She is such a nice girl, and we respect each others privacy, and we cover for each other lol. Her boyfriend lives in an apartment close by so she has spent most of her time there. I wish my boyfriend was here, but soon he will.
Yes also in big news is that I finally told my parents about James. Yes, after months of hiding, my parents now know I am dating James. It’s all gone by much smoother than I thought it would. Now that I’m 18, I guess the age difference isn’t that big of a deal. All that my mother was worried about was that she thought I would waste my time in a relationship when I could go out and date and experience college guys. Well actually at first she wanted James and me to take a break for a year, and if afterwards we still wanted to, we could date. All I could really tell her is that I care about him and he cares about me, and if things didn’t work out, I had my whole life to get back on my feet and find someone else. Which is true, but I just said that to make her happy. Anyways back to my point. James is supposed to visit Wednesday and stay through Friday. My parents only know that he is coming on Friday because he is helping us move into the new house. I’m such a terrible child…
Saying goodbye wasn’t that hard, well at first it was. I went to Tucson last Wednesday to do some last minute things at U of A, and on the way back it all hit me. That I was leaving Yuma and leaving my friends and family. Later that night, I met up with Luis for the last time. He was leaving Thursday morning to head of to ASU. It was right at that moment when I fell apart. I started to cry, because I knew that things were changing for the worst. I started to wish that I was staying in Yuma where everyone else was. Luis really helped me and actually felt the same way, but in the end we realized that we were going to somewhere better. After that I met up with James, and I cried when I saw him too. I was so scared of losing him and that when I left, he wouldn’t want to try to make the relationship work. Luckily for me, he was nothing but sympathetic and reassured me that we would be ok as long as we tried….
So now I am in Tucson, and actually enjoying the time I have to myself. College is so different, and there are so many people. All I want to do is do well in school, and enjoy my independence, is that so hard?
Yes also in big news is that I finally told my parents about James. Yes, after months of hiding, my parents now know I am dating James. It’s all gone by much smoother than I thought it would. Now that I’m 18, I guess the age difference isn’t that big of a deal. All that my mother was worried about was that she thought I would waste my time in a relationship when I could go out and date and experience college guys. Well actually at first she wanted James and me to take a break for a year, and if afterwards we still wanted to, we could date. All I could really tell her is that I care about him and he cares about me, and if things didn’t work out, I had my whole life to get back on my feet and find someone else. Which is true, but I just said that to make her happy. Anyways back to my point. James is supposed to visit Wednesday and stay through Friday. My parents only know that he is coming on Friday because he is helping us move into the new house. I’m such a terrible child…
Saying goodbye wasn’t that hard, well at first it was. I went to Tucson last Wednesday to do some last minute things at U of A, and on the way back it all hit me. That I was leaving Yuma and leaving my friends and family. Later that night, I met up with Luis for the last time. He was leaving Thursday morning to head of to ASU. It was right at that moment when I fell apart. I started to cry, because I knew that things were changing for the worst. I started to wish that I was staying in Yuma where everyone else was. Luis really helped me and actually felt the same way, but in the end we realized that we were going to somewhere better. After that I met up with James, and I cried when I saw him too. I was so scared of losing him and that when I left, he wouldn’t want to try to make the relationship work. Luckily for me, he was nothing but sympathetic and reassured me that we would be ok as long as we tried….
So now I am in Tucson, and actually enjoying the time I have to myself. College is so different, and there are so many people. All I want to do is do well in school, and enjoy my independence, is that so hard?