Ms. Mary Mack
I had my meeting with my boss. Seems like nothing will change. My only hope is for some of the kids to move or end up in different programs. Found out that the testing I have to do this year will require 4-6 hours of testing one on one with my 14 kids over the course of about 30 school days. So, that's 56-84 hours which is about 12-17 full school days. So, I'm going to need a sub for a month later in the year anyway...I will also be out for training because it's a brand new test. At that point maybe it will be everyone else that is screwed...I don't want that for my aides in the class but f the rest of 'em! Those aides probably will be replaced next year anyway with some fresh new certified blood for the district to use and abuse. I'm back to trying to figure out how to get myself in as an aide in Eloise's school soon. If we decided we could afford it though, there are still the logistics of how to get in. Since it's such a big district and they hire for the district rather than the school there is a lengthy process of getting where you want to go. I guess I have a lot of time before I should even start thinking about what to do next, but that's not really going to stop me. I might have to stick it out for another year after this. Then Benjamin would be in preschool which would be cheaper and then we would only have two years of tight budget before he was out of preschool and into Kindergarten. Once he's in Kindergarten, we wouldn't have to worry so much about a pay cut for me but that's far off. Not sure if I can make it two years... I'm always trying things on. Lot's of time, lot's of time. Just survive now. Well, it would help to know there was an end somewhere in sight. I mean, I do get a nice long break so if I had to make it another year, at least I would have some time to get refreshed in between. I just need to stop caring so much. I mean, I should care about the kids, but not about EVERYTHING. No, that's the problem. All I want to do is care about the kids and I can't show them I care because I can't get to them all. How can I give up on that. That's really my main goal...oh, and keeping them safe, which is also challenging! Whatever, it's the weekend. We walked to the coffee shop and library and played on the playground, I made haystack cookies and started a laundry and a load of dishes we are going to go to a pumpkin place and maybe the Y. Matt and Eloise are at Meijer and maybe they will come home with donuts. We are making dinner for my sister and fam tomorrow....it's the weekend! and, I picked up some video's for my class that go along with our theme, we are making a cake for a b-day and a mashed potato thing next week at school...plus, I am taking a whole half day instead of a half hour off to get Benjamin to his doctors appt which means that wed. afternoon I get to go volunteer in Eloise's class, get Benjamin early and that's going to be great!F-school!L-weekend!