Thanks, Aazhie!(and LiveJournal!) <3
Thanks Aazhie! It is tough for me too, I just haven't done much talking about this sort of thing. I know it will be hard and probably very awkward to tell my Mom. I'm waiting to talk with her about it until I've started electrolysis, and maybe hormones(I want it to be obvious to her that A: I've put some thought into this and I mean business, and B: It's not a phase, it's my only option for real happiness and comfort with my life, so I'm taking initiative to get there). Of course, that means I'm waiting until I have a better paying job.
I live in a place with folks who are rather an odd mix, I think. I have some friends who are rather liberal and friendly towards everyone, and then I go to work, and the place I work at (I'm an external person, not employed by the company I work at, but I clean their buildings every day, so I'm around their lunchrooms and such during breaks, and I hear things they talk about, and the jokes and discussions people have while disregarding that quiet cleaning 'guy' filling napkin dispensers is revealing. :D ) I hear people making really harsh, conservative/cold-hearted statements as if they're obvious to everyone, which maybe everyone who works there is rather conservative, I know a lot of people there are, they think Obama is the worst person ever, partly due to his attempts to help disadvantaged folks, who should not be dependent on the system, and who take their hard earned money, etc.
Anywho... I hope I'm not still working there when I come out and live full time. Partly because it's not a great job, and partly because it would be super awkward to walk in the room in women's pants and shoes (my shirt would be the same uniform shirt everyone in the cleaning company wears) and trying to clean stuff while everyone wonders wtf is going on. :P :) Of course, if I'm confident about it and such, it could be awesome and hilarious or whatever. but I don't know these people, and I'm pretty sure I'd have some really profoundly negative reactions, or people thinking I lost a bet and had to wear girl's clothes or something.
Sorry for the disjointed and random post. It was first supposed to be in reply to a comment by Aazhie on my most recent post, but apparently I get carried away too easily and end up writing long posts with the most absurdly long, barely-readable sentences. :) I really need to get better at writing things. I was a good writer in high school and college, but it's been too long since I've been required to formulate my thoughts in concise sentences that actually make sense to someone else.
If you're still reading at this point, you're a trooper, and you rock my weird internet socks off. I want to thank everyone on LJ who is so supportive and helpful for people with questions or anxieties or worries or exciting news. I think you (we?) are a great community for people who maybe don't always have the 'real world' community to fall back on or bounce questions off of.
I <3 you, binary folks! :)
Love, and warm fuzzies,
Beverly
I live in a place with folks who are rather an odd mix, I think. I have some friends who are rather liberal and friendly towards everyone, and then I go to work, and the place I work at (I'm an external person, not employed by the company I work at, but I clean their buildings every day, so I'm around their lunchrooms and such during breaks, and I hear things they talk about, and the jokes and discussions people have while disregarding that quiet cleaning 'guy' filling napkin dispensers is revealing. :D ) I hear people making really harsh, conservative/cold-hearted statements as if they're obvious to everyone, which maybe everyone who works there is rather conservative, I know a lot of people there are, they think Obama is the worst person ever, partly due to his attempts to help disadvantaged folks, who should not be dependent on the system, and who take their hard earned money, etc.
Anywho... I hope I'm not still working there when I come out and live full time. Partly because it's not a great job, and partly because it would be super awkward to walk in the room in women's pants and shoes (my shirt would be the same uniform shirt everyone in the cleaning company wears) and trying to clean stuff while everyone wonders wtf is going on. :P :) Of course, if I'm confident about it and such, it could be awesome and hilarious or whatever. but I don't know these people, and I'm pretty sure I'd have some really profoundly negative reactions, or people thinking I lost a bet and had to wear girl's clothes or something.
Sorry for the disjointed and random post. It was first supposed to be in reply to a comment by Aazhie on my most recent post, but apparently I get carried away too easily and end up writing long posts with the most absurdly long, barely-readable sentences. :) I really need to get better at writing things. I was a good writer in high school and college, but it's been too long since I've been required to formulate my thoughts in concise sentences that actually make sense to someone else.
If you're still reading at this point, you're a trooper, and you rock my weird internet socks off. I want to thank everyone on LJ who is so supportive and helpful for people with questions or anxieties or worries or exciting news. I think you (we?) are a great community for people who maybe don't always have the 'real world' community to fall back on or bounce questions off of.
I <3 you, binary folks! :)
Love, and warm fuzzies,
Beverly