11/5/05
So0 only 19 more days until my 18th birthday! I am very excited. I want everyone to go out to dinner with me then go get my tongue pierced and get drunk! Yay!
So last night, I overall I had an ok time. The girls forced me to go out with them, i didn't want to because I was waiting for Ryan. First mistake, We have only been dating for 3 weeks, there is no need to wait for him at home while he is at a club, instead of have my own fun.
Well we were getting ready to leave and i got a hold of Ryan and he was already on his way. so0 i was happy, but then i saw he was drunk, honestly. But he wanted to come out with us, so0 we still went out to Mika's house. Really nothing much to do but smoke, so me and the girls did and were are usual selves being funni and weird. I guess we weren't entertaining everyone though.
I get back to my house to find that ryan is mad at me, which i think he had a pausible reason, but went about it all wrong. The whole thing could of been avoided. But it happened so0 here we are. Hands up in the air.
I am sorry, i think i might be too much to handle. Maybe i am coming on to strong. Maybe he doesn't feel the way that I do. All i know is i hope everyday that he will see that i am sincere in my word and that he will learn to accept the way that i am. Even if i wasn't high, my friends and I are extremly goofy and a little overwelming. I am mature most of the time but when i am with them i can really just let go and be myself.
I would love for you to ask me questions and get to know me more. So then maybe you will get the type of person I am and not what you have percieved from hopes that i am.
sorry if this offends anyone. I had to get it off my chest.
So last night, I overall I had an ok time. The girls forced me to go out with them, i didn't want to because I was waiting for Ryan. First mistake, We have only been dating for 3 weeks, there is no need to wait for him at home while he is at a club, instead of have my own fun.
Well we were getting ready to leave and i got a hold of Ryan and he was already on his way. so0 i was happy, but then i saw he was drunk, honestly. But he wanted to come out with us, so0 we still went out to Mika's house. Really nothing much to do but smoke, so me and the girls did and were are usual selves being funni and weird. I guess we weren't entertaining everyone though.
I get back to my house to find that ryan is mad at me, which i think he had a pausible reason, but went about it all wrong. The whole thing could of been avoided. But it happened so0 here we are. Hands up in the air.
I am sorry, i think i might be too much to handle. Maybe i am coming on to strong. Maybe he doesn't feel the way that I do. All i know is i hope everyday that he will see that i am sincere in my word and that he will learn to accept the way that i am. Even if i wasn't high, my friends and I are extremly goofy and a little overwelming. I am mature most of the time but when i am with them i can really just let go and be myself.
I would love for you to ask me questions and get to know me more. So then maybe you will get the type of person I am and not what you have percieved from hopes that i am.
sorry if this offends anyone. I had to get it off my chest.