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I just thought of something... its the baby. I had alot of fun last night, allsion i am so0 happy for you n shane. I am tired of drama and feeling like shit, last night was a slap in the face. It hurt alot you guys.
I wish i could just hop in my car and drive to my sisters house. That would be the life. I love her with all my heart and miss her so0 much. Seriously Courtney, I think about you everyday, there is never a time where I doubt you, it would be alot easier if we saw each other more. But when we do see each other it is like nothing has changed. I am sorry if i have not been there for you latly but I think what happens is that i try to seperate myself from things that hurt me. Like it hurts me that I can't be there for you and i can't cry on your shoulder when I need to, so i just try to put everything in the back of my mind, I don't mean to hurt you by not talking to you. I want to talk to you all the time, it just hurts me when you are hurting. But I know your life is full of promise, I am so0 proud of you. And I hope you are proud of me.
I loved our conversation the other day. You are and always will be my hero.
love sincerly,
Chelsea
I wish i could just hop in my car and drive to my sisters house. That would be the life. I love her with all my heart and miss her so0 much. Seriously Courtney, I think about you everyday, there is never a time where I doubt you, it would be alot easier if we saw each other more. But when we do see each other it is like nothing has changed. I am sorry if i have not been there for you latly but I think what happens is that i try to seperate myself from things that hurt me. Like it hurts me that I can't be there for you and i can't cry on your shoulder when I need to, so i just try to put everything in the back of my mind, I don't mean to hurt you by not talking to you. I want to talk to you all the time, it just hurts me when you are hurting. But I know your life is full of promise, I am so0 proud of you. And I hope you are proud of me.
I loved our conversation the other day. You are and always will be my hero.
love sincerly,
Chelsea