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i just want him to say once in a while that he misses me.
i miss him so much. if i'm not constantly doing something, then it's overwhelming how much i miss him.
when i'm not hearing from him at least i can pretend that like i know that he misses me and he loves me and that he's just too busy to send me an email. and i love getting emails from him. but it's SO hard not having reassurance. it's so hard not knowing if he misses me and that he loves me.
i told my dad about everything and i started crying and i don't want my parents to see me cry over steve because he's a good guy, and any time i cry over a boy my parents automatically hate them and it's not fair for them to hate steve. it's not fair for me to be mad or upset with him, i know that...but it's SO frustrating.
it's not a difficult thing to say, either he misses me or he doesn't.
and like i don't want to be crazy or irrational about it i mean it's so hard. like for the first time i'm actually conscious of like being crazy....uoaidg blah.
just one of those days
i miss him so much. if i'm not constantly doing something, then it's overwhelming how much i miss him.
when i'm not hearing from him at least i can pretend that like i know that he misses me and he loves me and that he's just too busy to send me an email. and i love getting emails from him. but it's SO hard not having reassurance. it's so hard not knowing if he misses me and that he loves me.
i told my dad about everything and i started crying and i don't want my parents to see me cry over steve because he's a good guy, and any time i cry over a boy my parents automatically hate them and it's not fair for them to hate steve. it's not fair for me to be mad or upset with him, i know that...but it's SO frustrating.
it's not a difficult thing to say, either he misses me or he doesn't.
and like i don't want to be crazy or irrational about it i mean it's so hard. like for the first time i'm actually conscious of like being crazy....uoaidg blah.
just one of those days