other kisses

[bettyismycat]

and he said...you know there are other kisses.

and i kind of exploded inside. other kisses?! no way....

and then i woke up to a room filled with flies.

but i didnt care.
i cant wait to come home tonight and sleep.

and pretend that he is there. with his other kisses.
just like anyother. cause im starting to think i am always anyother...somebody..anybody.
just a body.

and im still waiting. im like those ladies barry hannah wrote about in the short story im reading.
im like those ladies...that sit there and drip of certain perfections...and just wait. im perfect for someone i know...

maybe im perfect for me..im inlove with my walk today i decided. and im inlove with my shoulders. just cause they are thin. and if i were someone else id shake them..and pull them and kiss and them and hold them.
if i were someone else id never let me go.

yes....thats what i think.

"starting now ill never cry again. from this point on ill try hard to pretend, that im perfect in every single way...."

thats the song for today.

the skies are blue.and the sun is warm.
and we are all wearing tshirts.