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Mothers Day:
- the most painful day of the year
- also the most depressing and hurtful
- biggest waist of my effort and money
- day that makes me wanna hurt ppl the most
- eating breakfast and some fancy smancy resturant
- opening a present
- recieveing the reaction of "ohhh its not what i wanted...but errr thanks anyway"
- always with a look of disgust on her face
- then comes the yelling
- YOUR SO FUCING UNGRATEFUL I DONT NO WHY I GIVE A FUCKING BOTHER
- then their is the guilt trip...i work so hard for you girls bohoo having a cry
- then the apology
- then comes the "mum u realise that mothers day is just a huge scam so that shops can steal all our money"
- then comes the "no its not, its so u can appreciate how hard i work for you and how i sacrafice everything for you"
- *cough* bulshit *cough*
- and then there is always the day b4 when purchasing the present
- why the fuck do i bother becoz she will hate it anyway
- then the scary part...fenner just has to look at me and notices i feel like shit...just by looking at me...freakest part of it all
this was all of my thoughts today sumed into dot points...i also told mum she was hard to buy for and she was like as if i am, and i told her that we never get it right, and she goes...but its never like i go ohhh its not what i wanted
DOES SHE EVER FUCKING LISTEN TO HERSELF
i have alot of inner anger today and i think i need some time out
time for a wee and then some deep breathing
love ya
- the most painful day of the year
- also the most depressing and hurtful
- biggest waist of my effort and money
- day that makes me wanna hurt ppl the most
- eating breakfast and some fancy smancy resturant
- opening a present
- recieveing the reaction of "ohhh its not what i wanted...but errr thanks anyway"
- always with a look of disgust on her face
- then comes the yelling
- YOUR SO FUCING UNGRATEFUL I DONT NO WHY I GIVE A FUCKING BOTHER
- then their is the guilt trip...i work so hard for you girls bohoo having a cry
- then the apology
- then comes the "mum u realise that mothers day is just a huge scam so that shops can steal all our money"
- then comes the "no its not, its so u can appreciate how hard i work for you and how i sacrafice everything for you"
- *cough* bulshit *cough*
- and then there is always the day b4 when purchasing the present
- why the fuck do i bother becoz she will hate it anyway
- then the scary part...fenner just has to look at me and notices i feel like shit...just by looking at me...freakest part of it all
this was all of my thoughts today sumed into dot points...i also told mum she was hard to buy for and she was like as if i am, and i told her that we never get it right, and she goes...but its never like i go ohhh its not what i wanted
DOES SHE EVER FUCKING LISTEN TO HERSELF
i have alot of inner anger today and i think i need some time out
time for a wee and then some deep breathing
love ya