I find myself drifting into the sky, falling
Things are pretty bad. (*Keep It Posi.*) Yeah, well they are. I mean, let's be truthful... I'm seemingly in a dead end relationship. Ander's an amazing person, sweet and kind. But let's face it, I'm not cut out for him. He doesn't like me all that much. So, what to do is beyond me. Smiles in place for everyone to see but faking is half the job. I'm starting to feel really insignificant in such a big place. Amongst my friends I'm getting left behind. Change is good, I mean I never want to be able to settle. Just get "used" to how things are. I like when change comes, I guess. It's just I'm missing the way things were. I don't believe in regret because everything happens for a reason and the way things happen is the way their meant to unfold. Doesn't mean I can't alter the way things are or will be. I just feel powerless these days. Not much I do seems to make people happy. But I won't give up. I'm not much of one to do things for self profit. Maybe I need to learn how to be selfish. Well, watching SAW with Arthur after school tomorrow and then going to the doctor. Possibly have picture time with Greg. I look forward to it. I don't feel so happy. Losing my confidence. When whomever you date/ like doesn't think much of you, it's hard for you to do so. Maybe feeling like your important is overrated. My motives seem so unclear nowadays. I just want my close friends back. I like that my days are booked. Their actually booked with people I want to spend time with. It's just hard not being able to say what I want as much. Why won't they notice me? Why don't they want me? Why do I have to be this way? Why aren't I good enough for you? Why can't people just like me for me. And seriously, I doubt anyone really cares about these kind of entries. Oh well. Better days guys. <3