I am feeling sad today
This will be my first weekend ALONE
Didn’t get much sleep last night I feel asleep on the sofa didn’t want to go to the bed, to many memories, there to many heart aches in my room….
Last night I made a fire in the out side fire pit that I bought and Mo put together for the new house…. I began to cry. Feeling so alone with no one to share this stupid fire or to talk to .(something I have been waiting for since I bought this house)
The feeling of emptiness was way too overwhelming.
Finally told my mom that he is gone and hasn’t called in a week to see if we were ok (guess that proves how much he really wanted out) seems he already told her and went to her house on Tuesday,…… JERK told her b4 I got a chance sigh guess he just wanted to get his side in b4 I went and told her the real truth of how he was.
I gave up everything for the the wrong fk_ woman
still wondering what the heck he gave up? he only worked 3 monthes out of a year and im the one who stayed in NY when in a few short Monthes I wont have any one (family ) left in NY.... they all r moving to FL I decided to stay here cause of his daughters(that he hasnt seen or spoken to in 2 yrs)im the one who gave up 30 thow to only have 30 cents in my bank account.. he has been living here scot free WTH was I thinking... I can go on but im NOT right the post would B way 2 long ......
I gave up everything for the the wrong fk_ woman
I post that all over the place.. in my car… by my bed… by his desk that I bought and where he would sit…(any body want a 8 foot desk I got 2 of them and really only need one)^%$#@#@
ANY WAY I POST THOSE WORDS ALL OVER THE PLACE TO REMIND ME.. REMIND ME WHAT HE SAID TO ME THAT HURS SOOOO MUCH!!!!!! So whenever I begin to cry and feel so sad of my situation I look at those little post it notes and get MAD… MAD for all the shi_ he did or said to me…..( works pretty well for me and since I forgive and forget all to easily ) I need a reminder to keep moving in my life NOT to repeet the same situations over and over again and never accomplish anything….
Relationships that go no ware or are one sided are a BAD thing….. I just want to be loved and accepted and that sometimes is a big flaw cause im willing to swallow a lot of stuff and foget about the me….
Yeah yeah say it… I’m a dumb as_ I know
Didn’t get much sleep last night I feel asleep on the sofa didn’t want to go to the bed, to many memories, there to many heart aches in my room….
Last night I made a fire in the out side fire pit that I bought and Mo put together for the new house…. I began to cry. Feeling so alone with no one to share this stupid fire or to talk to .(something I have been waiting for since I bought this house)
The feeling of emptiness was way too overwhelming.
Finally told my mom that he is gone and hasn’t called in a week to see if we were ok (guess that proves how much he really wanted out) seems he already told her and went to her house on Tuesday,…… JERK told her b4 I got a chance sigh guess he just wanted to get his side in b4 I went and told her the real truth of how he was.
I gave up everything for the the wrong fk_ woman
still wondering what the heck he gave up? he only worked 3 monthes out of a year and im the one who stayed in NY when in a few short Monthes I wont have any one (family ) left in NY.... they all r moving to FL I decided to stay here cause of his daughters(that he hasnt seen or spoken to in 2 yrs)im the one who gave up 30 thow to only have 30 cents in my bank account.. he has been living here scot free WTH was I thinking... I can go on but im NOT right the post would B way 2 long ......
I gave up everything for the the wrong fk_ woman
I post that all over the place.. in my car… by my bed… by his desk that I bought and where he would sit…(any body want a 8 foot desk I got 2 of them and really only need one)^%$#@#@
ANY WAY I POST THOSE WORDS ALL OVER THE PLACE TO REMIND ME.. REMIND ME WHAT HE SAID TO ME THAT HURS SOOOO MUCH!!!!!! So whenever I begin to cry and feel so sad of my situation I look at those little post it notes and get MAD… MAD for all the shi_ he did or said to me…..( works pretty well for me and since I forgive and forget all to easily ) I need a reminder to keep moving in my life NOT to repeet the same situations over and over again and never accomplish anything….
Relationships that go no ware or are one sided are a BAD thing….. I just want to be loved and accepted and that sometimes is a big flaw cause im willing to swallow a lot of stuff and foget about the me….
Yeah yeah say it… I’m a dumb as_ I know