loyalty
I have trouble with the concept of loyalty. I don't have trouble enacting it; it's knowing when to call it a day that's the issue. When is loyalty honourable, and when is it just being a flat out sucker?
I think overdosing on loyalty goes along with smiling too much, apologising too much, and never being cool or aloof. Being reliable, and being the kind of person whom cool and aloof people take for granted as adoring fans.
I think it's time, as the age of 28, I accepted that:
1. I'm never going to successfully appear aloof
2. I'm generally going to be the dumpee
3. If I was a character in Lord of the Rings, I'd be Sam.
4. I'll never be ultra-desirable due to these traits
5. I'm always going to be wide open to potential hurts
6. At least I'll never be Gollum.
I recently had a pretty close friend leave me off their list of invitees for their party. I stewed over it for a week, wandering round in a haze like a wounded animal, then realised: who cares, if I don't? And also realised: I can have my own party. One thing smiley, uncool people are never short of are friends, even if I didn't fit into the desired demographic of that friend's party. So if you are reading this, you are a friend, and you're invited to my party. Saturday 12 March, in the backyard of Chateau le Vassallo, while my parents are away for three weeks on a cruise. I may even hire a slushy machine. I kid myself that I'm not going to invite that one person that broke my loyal little heart, but I probably will. Because I'm the dumpee, not the dumper, remember? (Besides, I'd hate to hurt anyone's feelings!)
I hope you're well =)
I think overdosing on loyalty goes along with smiling too much, apologising too much, and never being cool or aloof. Being reliable, and being the kind of person whom cool and aloof people take for granted as adoring fans.
I think it's time, as the age of 28, I accepted that:
1. I'm never going to successfully appear aloof
2. I'm generally going to be the dumpee
3. If I was a character in Lord of the Rings, I'd be Sam.
4. I'll never be ultra-desirable due to these traits
5. I'm always going to be wide open to potential hurts
6. At least I'll never be Gollum.
I recently had a pretty close friend leave me off their list of invitees for their party. I stewed over it for a week, wandering round in a haze like a wounded animal, then realised: who cares, if I don't? And also realised: I can have my own party. One thing smiley, uncool people are never short of are friends, even if I didn't fit into the desired demographic of that friend's party. So if you are reading this, you are a friend, and you're invited to my party. Saturday 12 March, in the backyard of Chateau le Vassallo, while my parents are away for three weeks on a cruise. I may even hire a slushy machine. I kid myself that I'm not going to invite that one person that broke my loyal little heart, but I probably will. Because I'm the dumpee, not the dumper, remember? (Besides, I'd hate to hurt anyone's feelings!)
I hope you're well =)