Hahahaha you're fucking joking
Hahaha, alright so I didn't write anything about this yesterday because I didn't think it was worth it. But now it's just funny to me.
So my x "little sister" (we had a slight falling out and haven't talked in a while) is apprently engaged to her boyfriend (the guy who seems to be the reason why she doesn't want to talk to me anymore. I used to think that it was always "chicks before dicks" but to others...such is not the case). First off, if they're completely serious then fine - i hope that they're happy together and that they don't fade out like most 17 year old and 18 year old engagements/marriages do. But honestly, why would she think that, at this point in my life, I'd give two fucking shits?
This girl used to be my number one priority. She was, in my eyes, my little sister - blood relations - and I did anything I could for her. I was fucking there for her whenever she wanted me there. Last year, if she called me upset, I drove the 4 fucking hours to get there and spend the weekend with her and then drive back to school. I took time off school too many times to be with her and make sure that she was happy and she got to where she needed to go. It may not have been my responsiblity, and I may have payed for it in the long run, but maybe it's just my caring nature that wants to make sure that my "family" and friends are happy - not neglected.
I'm not going to say that I was perfect, there were times when I couldn't be there (ie. school) or times when I went back on my word to her (only 1 time comes to mind). But I'm fucking human. AND even so, never did I put someone else in front of her. Even when I was dating this guy, if she needed me, I was there.
The last time I saw her, I spent extra days with her so she could hang out with this guy who she's now engaged to. I took her to see her horse and stayed with her so that she had a ride back to her house. I was her chauffer and I was on call the whole 4 days. The last thing she said to me was an implication that I was flirting with her man and that I was trying to take him from her and how she would be sad if I did. First of all, I knew that she wanted his jock and I wasn't going to mess with that. I'm not fucking stupid and I'm not going to argue over petty bullshit. But apparently, I can't be friends with her love interests.
What gets me most is when it was my turn to need someone, she didn't do shit. I don't see why it was time to be secretive and cross ME off your list. But then again, she wanted to hang out with David so of course, I came last on her interests.
So what tipped this off? Well, if you're going to have a friend IM me (yesterday) and later your "future husband" (today) and have them tell me how you're engaged and how you wanted them to tell me of this news...don't fucking bother. Get the fucking balls to talk to me yourself and tell me what's up in your life. It only pisses me off that you're too pussy to face me. If you really cared, you would tell me yourself and you would care about what I've been going through these past few months. Not once have you tried to contact me and therefore I've given up on trying to be your "big sister" and friend.
I hope you have a good life and that you never find yourself saying "I wish Claire were around" - because I won't be. Fix your own messes.
[PS the likelyhood of Jaz, her friends or even David himself reading this probably aren't as slim as I may think...but if you ARE reading this...then maybe you all care more than I (or even yourself) thought]