i hate everything

[betty_bitchslap]

well, it's not fair, it's not even close. you tied me down, where i'm forced to watch as you poke holes in every part of me containing something secretly. something sacred to me. i lied my face off when i said that i would be okay. it's never fine when you go away. these cuts run deep. these scars are permanent and always on display. this makes things difficult for me. it's not fair, it's not even close. you fed me the sun. burned me up inside and watched me choke on everything we did. on everything we lived. let's see if i can live again. i lied my face off when i said that i would be okay. it's never fine when you go away. these cuts run deep. these scars are permanent and always on display.
maybe i'll stay down next time i get hit by a train. by a train. i lied my face off when i said that i would be okay. it's never fine when you go away.

She wrote:
"i'm incredibly happy. my luis is here right now, but he's sleeping. oh my god, almost every weekend, we've spent the night with each other. he's so amazing. We really are going to get married. And we already started looking for furniture. man, it's so awful... 11 months without my baby. but when i move in with him, things are going to get back on track.

i love my baby forever. "

i dont know if i can do this..... how can he be waiting for me but have her move here?

how the fuck can he do this to me?