ITS DONE.
im EXTREMELY happy that i never told anyone anything important, because it's easier when they leave to know that they haven't taken all of me with them, but i hate the distrust that is so prevalent in my life right now.
i am done with this livejournal, I've erased it from all "friends", changed my password, all that jazz. I wasn't really writing in it anyway, I've felt it was beyond it for the past few months. And it was. I was planning on making a new one after my first year, (which I will do once I get to it) so....
I saw a rainbow today, and it was absolutely beautiful, the hole arch, the colors. I know it was nothing more than light, but it was nice. The radiance gave me hope, even though the backdrop was that of dark gray "cumulonimbus" clouds.
I hate losing people close to me, it always leaves this hole inside of me that never ever goes aawy, everyt ime events in my lifepermit or influence it, that hole is reopened, the scab just beginning to heal around the gaping wound ripped off so the blood pours free again.
In the past few weeks, people close to me have come close to happiness, sadness, anger, a sense of peace, death, and life. And all I can say is that I am happy to have known everyone, all of you will always have a place in my heart. And with that, I'm done.
I have finally seen why I was the one worth leaving.
It's always over before it's begun. But it was fun while it lasted.
Never forget me, or all the times we had.
Love you all, Liz
i am done with this livejournal, I've erased it from all "friends", changed my password, all that jazz. I wasn't really writing in it anyway, I've felt it was beyond it for the past few months. And it was. I was planning on making a new one after my first year, (which I will do once I get to it) so....
I saw a rainbow today, and it was absolutely beautiful, the hole arch, the colors. I know it was nothing more than light, but it was nice. The radiance gave me hope, even though the backdrop was that of dark gray "cumulonimbus" clouds.
I hate losing people close to me, it always leaves this hole inside of me that never ever goes aawy, everyt ime events in my lifepermit or influence it, that hole is reopened, the scab just beginning to heal around the gaping wound ripped off so the blood pours free again.
In the past few weeks, people close to me have come close to happiness, sadness, anger, a sense of peace, death, and life. And all I can say is that I am happy to have known everyone, all of you will always have a place in my heart. And with that, I'm done.
I have finally seen why I was the one worth leaving.
It's always over before it's begun. But it was fun while it lasted.
Never forget me, or all the times we had.
Love you all, Liz