Burns suck. Owwwwwwwww.
I remember the days of biggity bam. Not well, but i do. What's up breaking out? Irregardless?
How can anyone think that's a word!??? Just look at it!! Ah, the eccentricities of humanity.
I am extremely busy right now. I am supposed to be a at work but not only did I not go, but they never called. Man those people are wac...... No more Sports! So I screwed myself out of a (virtually useless) reference and I don't have many others but OH WELL. I still want to get silk screening supplies and try to print/sell shit. It's a good trade. The aforementioned mispeaker taught me that.... Yes, lately i've been itching for a trade. Wanting to work with my hands and learn to be really good at something. A really big part of me wants to say fuck college and skip this last year and just try to get an apprenticeship or something. Of course I'm too much of a puss to actually do that, but I really need to learn to do SOMETHING. This place made me dumb (or I guess I did it to myself but it feels like IU) so it isn't as if I'm really of above average intelligence anymore. I mean maybe I naturally have a propensity for understanding things more easily than the average person but I'm exterminating that very quickly. Plus a good majority of people who go to college have been academically successful and hence are probably in the same boat as I am. It's all a game of averages after all..... And yeah, I'm just a fucking idiot now. i've lost my creative thinking. All I can do is avoid and analyze. Avoidance is bad (procrastinatros rot in hell!) and analysis is good but it is true that when you overanalyze you extrapolate meanings not likely there, plus you miss the beauty in all of it. But I guess if I want to be a counselor that's alright? I just can't help but feel that I have been misled all this time. Who convinced me that I wanted to be academic? I want to travel and work and live. I don't want a fucking PhD. I mean, it seemed logical, though I have always always done the minimum to get by.......but a PhD seemed logical because I haven't really done much but school and they DID make it sound tempting. No more!!!
I still think frequently about going into tourism.....I probably should have been a business major then... I just think would excel at that. I really do. I do feel I will excel at counseling, should I choose that path, but I really want to work with addicts and I don't really want to give up the opportunity to ever do any drugs. Well plus I guess they want people who have been addicted to drugs.....hardcore addicted. I could even pass for slight addiction. I mean i've tried several drugs, but never in large doses, never repeatedly. I'm simply too responsible about it. So maybe this should be my crack year....year of heroin.....meth lab 2004.
No matter how hard I work it never gets done!!!
I checked the weather report. Friday night, clear skies, low of 51 (same as tonight). It will be crisp, with a nice nip. That said, I am contemplating going to the bloomington Speedway and drinking beers and shouting with the good ole boys, but this is an activity that would be WAY more fun in a group, so......does beer and stock car racing appeal to anyone but me? I just love it when they wreck......... WHO WILL JOIN ME FRIDAY NIGHT IF I GO?
(I suspect I will not get many rsvps here......I know it's a long shot...)
How can anyone think that's a word!??? Just look at it!! Ah, the eccentricities of humanity.
I am extremely busy right now. I am supposed to be a at work but not only did I not go, but they never called. Man those people are wac...... No more Sports! So I screwed myself out of a (virtually useless) reference and I don't have many others but OH WELL. I still want to get silk screening supplies and try to print/sell shit. It's a good trade. The aforementioned mispeaker taught me that.... Yes, lately i've been itching for a trade. Wanting to work with my hands and learn to be really good at something. A really big part of me wants to say fuck college and skip this last year and just try to get an apprenticeship or something. Of course I'm too much of a puss to actually do that, but I really need to learn to do SOMETHING. This place made me dumb (or I guess I did it to myself but it feels like IU) so it isn't as if I'm really of above average intelligence anymore. I mean maybe I naturally have a propensity for understanding things more easily than the average person but I'm exterminating that very quickly. Plus a good majority of people who go to college have been academically successful and hence are probably in the same boat as I am. It's all a game of averages after all..... And yeah, I'm just a fucking idiot now. i've lost my creative thinking. All I can do is avoid and analyze. Avoidance is bad (procrastinatros rot in hell!) and analysis is good but it is true that when you overanalyze you extrapolate meanings not likely there, plus you miss the beauty in all of it. But I guess if I want to be a counselor that's alright? I just can't help but feel that I have been misled all this time. Who convinced me that I wanted to be academic? I want to travel and work and live. I don't want a fucking PhD. I mean, it seemed logical, though I have always always done the minimum to get by.......but a PhD seemed logical because I haven't really done much but school and they DID make it sound tempting. No more!!!
I still think frequently about going into tourism.....I probably should have been a business major then... I just think would excel at that. I really do. I do feel I will excel at counseling, should I choose that path, but I really want to work with addicts and I don't really want to give up the opportunity to ever do any drugs. Well plus I guess they want people who have been addicted to drugs.....hardcore addicted. I could even pass for slight addiction. I mean i've tried several drugs, but never in large doses, never repeatedly. I'm simply too responsible about it. So maybe this should be my crack year....year of heroin.....meth lab 2004.
No matter how hard I work it never gets done!!!
I checked the weather report. Friday night, clear skies, low of 51 (same as tonight). It will be crisp, with a nice nip. That said, I am contemplating going to the bloomington Speedway and drinking beers and shouting with the good ole boys, but this is an activity that would be WAY more fun in a group, so......does beer and stock car racing appeal to anyone but me? I just love it when they wreck......... WHO WILL JOIN ME FRIDAY NIGHT IF I GO?
(I suspect I will not get many rsvps here......I know it's a long shot...)