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So here it is: nearly a week since the Comic Con has been over and a few days upon returning home. I'm so down right now, I feel like I'm encased in lead and I hear nothing but the echo of my own thoughts bouncing off of the walls of this invisible casket. It's not the greatest place to be, though I'm trying to convince myself that it's Great for creating and it's that sort of melancholy that helps to produce oodles of fantastic writing. Sure it is. Whatever. I am trying to add edits into "The Labyrinth of Empty" while sitting in my studio: the heat coming off of the laptop is not helping matters and I almost feel like making another go at sleep. I'm not tired by any means, though when I think about having to wake up for work tomorrow morning, I suddenly get overwhelmed with mental yawning.
Why am I not living my life as I should be yet? Why do I have that horrid Sunday afternoon anxiety because Monday morning is lurking too closely by? Oh yes--because I'm not working hard enough for it. At least, that is the only reason I can yet come up with. I wonder how other authors felt at this stage before they began to get reviews, show up on best sellers lists, get interviews and SELL BOOKS. And that is another thing: I can't get any of my books into local libraries unless I get a review by a renowned source--Not even if I DONATE them. What kind of stupid nonsense is that?? And how do I get a review in the first place?? I have considered going to coffee houses, etc. and just sticking copies of my books onto the "take a book, leave a book" shelves. At least then they might get into better circulation...Open to ideas on that one.
Enough of the counter-productive babble...
Comic Con was fun as always. I wore all the same shoes as last year and yet my feet hurt More. How does that work?? All costumes came together well. I wore my "Sky Diver" costume twice, though had to lose the skirt half way through the first day due to the warmth. Still looked okay that way. Many people from last year remembered the "Time Jumper" dress and said so--it was nice to hear that! The Serafina Pekkala costume was nice to look at but in retrospect, it should have been about 8 inches shorter so I wouldn't have had to carry it when I walked. Poor planning there (I was only thinking of how it would look blowing around in the wind...of which there was none within the convention center!) Otherwise it was good. Many compliments on my new cloud pine bow--it was dubbed "sweet" by one person, as he grinned from ear to ear. My steampunk rifle (one of eight made) was quite popular. I think the best moment I had with it was letting a little boy hold it. He must have been about 6 years old and no more than 3.5 feet tall. He gave a little sound of declaration of its heft and claimed that it wasn't "that heavy"...His dad took photos and stupid me--I didn't ask him to email me copies. Oh well. Maybe the universe will drop a hint...
Met a few new people, saw some of the ones from last year--and actually got names and introductions this time; new costumes, new excitement. I'm sorry I'll miss the events SoCalSteam puts together on the west coast, but I guess that means that Steampunkers on the east coast should probably drop the New England trait of not talking to one another and organize something fun! Why can't WE have croquet noir (croquet at midnight) here??? Well, until then, I'm happy that we have had more picnics this year than last summer(YAY)! Even if they're non-steam, they still involve lots of food and eating it.
Beyond SDCC 2009: I am trying to get some mental imagery of next year's costumes and made a few horrid sketches. Bits and pieces are coming together for two of them. On that note: I will need a Red Rose Tea figurine in the shape of a camel or an elephant. If anyone comes across one at a swap meet/flea market/antique store, please let me know. I saw a slew of them a few weeks ago, but didn't check for either animal...since I didn't know I'd be needing one! I'll be scouring ebay, as per the routine in my costuming shenanigans. I also have a few non-costuming sewing projects in mind, but those tend to pop up here and there.
As sort of mentioned, I'm working on the added edits for "The Labyrinth of Empty". I have made a second read through of it, straightened some of it out, had some really grand eurekas for it and though I'm still not as thrilled over it over all--I can't wait for someone else to read it. That usually pushes things to the next level and I'm ready for that!
Back to it. Before I make another paragraph.
Why am I not living my life as I should be yet? Why do I have that horrid Sunday afternoon anxiety because Monday morning is lurking too closely by? Oh yes--because I'm not working hard enough for it. At least, that is the only reason I can yet come up with. I wonder how other authors felt at this stage before they began to get reviews, show up on best sellers lists, get interviews and SELL BOOKS. And that is another thing: I can't get any of my books into local libraries unless I get a review by a renowned source--Not even if I DONATE them. What kind of stupid nonsense is that?? And how do I get a review in the first place?? I have considered going to coffee houses, etc. and just sticking copies of my books onto the "take a book, leave a book" shelves. At least then they might get into better circulation...Open to ideas on that one.
Enough of the counter-productive babble...
Comic Con was fun as always. I wore all the same shoes as last year and yet my feet hurt More. How does that work?? All costumes came together well. I wore my "Sky Diver" costume twice, though had to lose the skirt half way through the first day due to the warmth. Still looked okay that way. Many people from last year remembered the "Time Jumper" dress and said so--it was nice to hear that! The Serafina Pekkala costume was nice to look at but in retrospect, it should have been about 8 inches shorter so I wouldn't have had to carry it when I walked. Poor planning there (I was only thinking of how it would look blowing around in the wind...of which there was none within the convention center!) Otherwise it was good. Many compliments on my new cloud pine bow--it was dubbed "sweet" by one person, as he grinned from ear to ear. My steampunk rifle (one of eight made) was quite popular. I think the best moment I had with it was letting a little boy hold it. He must have been about 6 years old and no more than 3.5 feet tall. He gave a little sound of declaration of its heft and claimed that it wasn't "that heavy"...His dad took photos and stupid me--I didn't ask him to email me copies. Oh well. Maybe the universe will drop a hint...
Met a few new people, saw some of the ones from last year--and actually got names and introductions this time; new costumes, new excitement. I'm sorry I'll miss the events SoCalSteam puts together on the west coast, but I guess that means that Steampunkers on the east coast should probably drop the New England trait of not talking to one another and organize something fun! Why can't WE have croquet noir (croquet at midnight) here??? Well, until then, I'm happy that we have had more picnics this year than last summer(YAY)! Even if they're non-steam, they still involve lots of food and eating it.
Beyond SDCC 2009: I am trying to get some mental imagery of next year's costumes and made a few horrid sketches. Bits and pieces are coming together for two of them. On that note: I will need a Red Rose Tea figurine in the shape of a camel or an elephant. If anyone comes across one at a swap meet/flea market/antique store, please let me know. I saw a slew of them a few weeks ago, but didn't check for either animal...since I didn't know I'd be needing one! I'll be scouring ebay, as per the routine in my costuming shenanigans. I also have a few non-costuming sewing projects in mind, but those tend to pop up here and there.
As sort of mentioned, I'm working on the added edits for "The Labyrinth of Empty". I have made a second read through of it, straightened some of it out, had some really grand eurekas for it and though I'm still not as thrilled over it over all--I can't wait for someone else to read it. That usually pushes things to the next level and I'm ready for that!
Back to it. Before I make another paragraph.