hey fuckers!!!

[bettina_luise]

oops i did it again. mkay lets see......i got in this really big fight with my mom about how i never say ne thing positive and how shes sick of hearing all my negative comments. oh i dont know but in the end she maneged to make me feel like a worthless pice of shit and also maneged to also make me cry.. not an easy feat really! anyways after that i

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[bettina_lynn]

i havent stopped myself...ive been doing it alot lately too, just when im at school i get in the happy zone and i dont like to talk about it...last nite was the worst. its making me wear a stupid wrist band thing today...ohh well, this is the stupid addiction we chose babe, everyone has their own, some people are addicted to pot, others are anorexic or bulemic, some like to burn themselves, us, we cut, and i know its definately not any better than any of those things but at the same time its not any worse, theyre all addictions and they're hard as hell to get over. lol stupid people like me get over it for like 3 months and then start up again...im sorry i havent told you about all this, ive just been in such a happy mood at school, and people know im really happy and it rubs off on them, i dont want them to think theres something wrong... like in one of the poems i wrote... for now i stay silent and smiling... haha except im not very silent lol i just smile all the time :) alrite babe well i gotta go, i will talk to you later, love you bunches. xoxo

[bettina_luise]

thanx babe i feel better knowing