self-loathing rant

[bettie_rage]

i feel like a fucking waste of life. i am trying so hard to do well in school and i think that i am, but for some reason i still stress about it nonstop and i'm always uneasy thinking about the shitloads of projects i have due in the next month. i dropped my math class because my teacher is a cunt. who can't teach, and has a serious attitude problem....and i didn't see how i would do well in a class like hers.... but i feel like a douche because i didn't overcome it & get through the class.

i'm sure i'll read this tomorrow and think "wow. i'm fucking emo" and delete this entry, but it felt good to write it tonight cos i have just had it with everything.