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I feel so depressed after the car accident. I'm not even sure if I'm depressed...there's just something wrong with me. Mentally and emotionally. I must have slept... 12 hours. And to be honest, I want to go back to bed again.
story:
I had to buy a x-mas present for work and Jessica said she'd take me. I was going to go on the bus, but complained about how cold it was, and she insisted on taking me. So fine. I waited and waited. I was waiting so much that I was dozing off to sleep. I was about to call her and tell her to forget it, I'd get the present on Monday night. As soon as I picked up the phone to dial her, she was honking outside. -I jump in the car and it felt eerie being in the car with her because I've never been in a car with her driving. It was all weird. It was dark and cold outside and her face looked all shadowy [is that even a word? who cares.]. So we're in a hurry because her Mom didn't want to lend her the car & only gave her like 30 minutes or something. She's driving & making weird noises like we're going to crash and my nervous feelings kinda go away because I start thinking that she's such a dumbass.
We fill up the gas tank because whenever she uses the car, her mom makes her fill it up. -we go to Target and get our stuff rather quickly and as we're driving back home, she drove down a different way & I did ask myself why she was driving that way, but I didn't ask because I figured she was going to her house to drop off the car or something. Anyway. As we're driving down [you wont believe it, but i can still see, feel & hear it.] the street, this car didn't stop and crashed into us.
The thing was that I saw him.. and I was going to tell her, "wait. he's not going to stop" and as soon as I opened my mouth, he crashed into us. I swear, the minute he hit us, I felt so responsible. I thought of her Mom and how she's going to be so pissed off at her. It's so weird. I felt I should have yelled at her or just gone on the bus. I feel like it's my fault. Anyway.
We crash and she turns to me and asks if I'm okay & I'm in complete shock and somehow manage to whisper "yeah. are you?" I had my hands covering my face the whole time. kinda like OMG OMG OMG! She somehow kicks open the door and asks the guy if he's okay & she thought someone died, and i was freaking out like, "WHO DIED? OMG!" They want me to go to a doctor, but I feel fine. My chest just hurts a little. or a lot.
I'm just sad.
story:
I had to buy a x-mas present for work and Jessica said she'd take me. I was going to go on the bus, but complained about how cold it was, and she insisted on taking me. So fine. I waited and waited. I was waiting so much that I was dozing off to sleep. I was about to call her and tell her to forget it, I'd get the present on Monday night. As soon as I picked up the phone to dial her, she was honking outside. -I jump in the car and it felt eerie being in the car with her because I've never been in a car with her driving. It was all weird. It was dark and cold outside and her face looked all shadowy [is that even a word? who cares.]. So we're in a hurry because her Mom didn't want to lend her the car & only gave her like 30 minutes or something. She's driving & making weird noises like we're going to crash and my nervous feelings kinda go away because I start thinking that she's such a dumbass.
We fill up the gas tank because whenever she uses the car, her mom makes her fill it up. -we go to Target and get our stuff rather quickly and as we're driving back home, she drove down a different way & I did ask myself why she was driving that way, but I didn't ask because I figured she was going to her house to drop off the car or something. Anyway. As we're driving down [you wont believe it, but i can still see, feel & hear it.] the street, this car didn't stop and crashed into us.
The thing was that I saw him.. and I was going to tell her, "wait. he's not going to stop" and as soon as I opened my mouth, he crashed into us. I swear, the minute he hit us, I felt so responsible. I thought of her Mom and how she's going to be so pissed off at her. It's so weird. I felt I should have yelled at her or just gone on the bus. I feel like it's my fault. Anyway.
We crash and she turns to me and asks if I'm okay & I'm in complete shock and somehow manage to whisper "yeah. are you?" I had my hands covering my face the whole time. kinda like OMG OMG OMG! She somehow kicks open the door and asks the guy if he's okay & she thought someone died, and i was freaking out like, "WHO DIED? OMG!" They want me to go to a doctor, but I feel fine. My chest just hurts a little. or a lot.
I'm just sad.