instant explanation
the last post i put some thought into i was drinking cinnamon schnapps, i posted how my parents house was a bum deal, shit was turning sour, the past few months have been centered around one word 'out'
out is just as good as in, it the stationary of one that is real the problem, so i'm taking a breather
the pasty few weeks in arlington have actually been a blast, playing my gameboy in front of walls of manga, the new lone stra comics is quite possibly the most badace store in the metroplex, justin and blane are more ahead of the curve than anyone else younger than me, and i met a good friend of theirs andy who just returned from europe on a self travel for 6 months, corey is a handful and also one of the best dudes i've ever had the good chance to meet, hanging in malls hopped up on my moms codiene, there is truly no denser form of american culture than a mall on the weekend, electronics on every corner, and long nights at ihop with no purpose but to sort out all the frustration i've been dealing with, yes in the sea of the city less city of arlington there has been a foul matter at foot, between me and my folks, i really pulled everything i could, pushed em to the brink, towards the end it became just for the hell of it, honestly it was brought as closer together, and a fine example of the whole ordeal is how i will never ever be admitted to live there again but my dad refused to let go of hugging me as i said goodnight to him the last night before i'd be out of their house, it was worthy of the phrase 'beautiful moment'
at the same time it pushed me to the brink of questioning my lifestyle, needless to say i've been listening to a lot of songs based around liberation through abstraction from 'normal' society, it has been a very inspiring and breaking past few weeks, so i sent brandon a text, unsure but asked anyways if next week he'd like to leave town, we prepared, he ditched out, i understood, but that understanding only comes from the understanding that it takes a lot to muster such a decision, i am glad i have, the day after tomorrow i will have proven a part of me that as i type now i am still quite uncertain if it exist
the morning i was supposed to go day labor and instead ran to my folks shelter showed that to me, now, now i must try again, and i must succeed, i don't know if i will be able to again
my access to the internet was revoked with the crash of a hard drive, hence the lack of update, it has honestly been a painfully exhilarating week, one that i am fine with not documenting, that was last week, this is my last night, and tommorrow is the day when it all goes down
to tommorrow
out is just as good as in, it the stationary of one that is real the problem, so i'm taking a breather
the pasty few weeks in arlington have actually been a blast, playing my gameboy in front of walls of manga, the new lone stra comics is quite possibly the most badace store in the metroplex, justin and blane are more ahead of the curve than anyone else younger than me, and i met a good friend of theirs andy who just returned from europe on a self travel for 6 months, corey is a handful and also one of the best dudes i've ever had the good chance to meet, hanging in malls hopped up on my moms codiene, there is truly no denser form of american culture than a mall on the weekend, electronics on every corner, and long nights at ihop with no purpose but to sort out all the frustration i've been dealing with, yes in the sea of the city less city of arlington there has been a foul matter at foot, between me and my folks, i really pulled everything i could, pushed em to the brink, towards the end it became just for the hell of it, honestly it was brought as closer together, and a fine example of the whole ordeal is how i will never ever be admitted to live there again but my dad refused to let go of hugging me as i said goodnight to him the last night before i'd be out of their house, it was worthy of the phrase 'beautiful moment'
at the same time it pushed me to the brink of questioning my lifestyle, needless to say i've been listening to a lot of songs based around liberation through abstraction from 'normal' society, it has been a very inspiring and breaking past few weeks, so i sent brandon a text, unsure but asked anyways if next week he'd like to leave town, we prepared, he ditched out, i understood, but that understanding only comes from the understanding that it takes a lot to muster such a decision, i am glad i have, the day after tomorrow i will have proven a part of me that as i type now i am still quite uncertain if it exist
the morning i was supposed to go day labor and instead ran to my folks shelter showed that to me, now, now i must try again, and i must succeed, i don't know if i will be able to again
my access to the internet was revoked with the crash of a hard drive, hence the lack of update, it has honestly been a painfully exhilarating week, one that i am fine with not documenting, that was last week, this is my last night, and tommorrow is the day when it all goes down
to tommorrow