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[betterthanthen]

Huh. I've been here for two years. I wonder if I should celebrate it. Maybe...

Let's see.

Came and left:

Yondaime-san
Naruto
Kakashi-sensei
Ino
Shizune-senpai
Tsunade-shishou
Tenten-san
Neji
Tayuya
Kimimaro
Kankuro
Sasori
Deidara
Uchiha Itachi
Hinata-san
Shikamaru
Lee-san
Sasuke
Gaara-san
Naruto
Uchiha Itachi
Naruto
Uchiha Itachi
Tenten-san
Gai-san
Lee-san
Naruto
Ino
Rin-chan
Temari-san
Shikamaru
Sai
Kakashi-sensei
Yondaime-sama

Stayed:
Sasuke
Shikamaru
Ino
Rin-chan
Obito-chan
Neji
Hinata-san
Naruto.

I...I don't know if this should be a list for you, Shikamaru, of if this is a list for me, but...two years is a long time to be in this place. I've seen people come, people go. I've seen them return with their memories intact, but some didn't remember a thing. Those are the ones that hurt meeting again. Repeating the same talk...

"You shouldn't be here."

And thinking the same thing.

But I'm so glad you are, because it was getting so lonely.

Does this make me selfish? To sometimes smile when I see my friends arrive here, even though it's not somewhere where we belong? I've been here for two years. This place...must really love me, because...I always come back, and always remember it vividly. After two years, getting out seems harder and harder, but I still agree that we can, sometimes. Just excuse me if I'm more skeptical about it than most. I think I'm allowed to be a little bit selfish. After two years, things here are finally...balanced. What a weird thing to say.

But I think there's balance now. I'll keep the reasons to myself. Two years...

I think I need a break from work. And a drink. This calls for one.

[ooc; The cut is not IC, I'm just sparing your flist as much as I can. Very introspective, good god.]