THe Days Grow Shorter.
Today happened to be very short. The fact that I spend 90% of the day sleeping and 100% of the night awake has something to do with it. To all that have been affected by upsetting behavior I am deeply sorry. A change has occurred in my mentality and now I think quite differently. People do not hold the same place in my heart that they once did. Trusting them has become a great issue and not one easily subdued. Those that are close to me I am sorry but it is too much for me to bear. I love all of you, that are my friends, but it is time for me to be alone. I am moving to San Fransisco and thus I must learn to move on with a different life. 18 days left till my departure and though I will miss a lot of you it goes without saying its what I need.
Loving you Alys was the only thing that I have truly lost at. It is sad too considering all the time and energy I spent on trying to win your heart. There has not been a single thing that I have applied myself to where success did not follow closely after(with the exception of you). We shared many great times as well as many bad ones too. The times we shared have been burned into my memory and live on forever young. Sad to say this but there will be a day where you regret punishing me for my good deeds. One day you will wake up and see my success as a slap in the face. This is when you will realize you lost the best thing that ever happened to you.
To the church thank you for being there with the support you have given me. God has changed me through the help of yall and I thank all of you for the obedience displayed by the congregation. The love and lack of judgment has helped me become a mature and self confident person. These traits given to me by the lord will help me grow and develop my relationship with god in another place. God will guide me to where it is he wants me now and I have yall to thank for that.
Life has a way of tearing me down but onward I go despite what it has to offer me. Nothing of this world is worth having nor do I deserve to live. Since God has blessed me with the good sense to know these things I will use that wisdom to define a better world for myself and others. I am not of the world but in it and thats why yall do not understand me. I do not take part in the things that yall do because they are not the plan of God. My irregularities make me a target for your persecution but what is different to you is oh so right to me. Someday everyone who has read this will see that my persecution will be my salvation.
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So lets all got cut for attention