hmm .
well, this past week has been kind of interesting. well not really that interesting. more like stressful, sickening (literally), et cetera ... but nonetheless, it was an ok school week.
this whole freaking week i've been sick. cough cough. it really sucks ass, especially with volleyball & track.
speaking of track. i pole vaulted yesterday in my first ever meet. & i sucked ass. i cleared the damn pole ... but on my way down i hit it. so basically i didnt get past opening height. very disappointing.
you know what else is disappointing? me. every weekend i tell my friends that, "yeah lets go to the movies this weekend" but i always end up not following through. seriously though, its not my fault. its my parents fault. they provide me with no mode of transportation whatsoever, because why? stupid basketball.
speaking of stupid basketball - i have a game on sunday ! hoorah. we're playing up a division though ... against juniors ... i'm the only freshie on a sophomore team, & no offense, but we kind of are not a very good team. hooray for being hammered !
ughhhh. i am still very very confused about this whole boy situation. do i like him ? or do i not like him ? i cant make up my mind. my mind (& a lot of people around me) are telling me not to like him, & there are a lot of reasons why i shouldnt, the biggest reason being that we dont really talk to each other. talk about awkward. but theres a part of me that still has a crush on him, a part of me that still makes me glance over at him even though i try not to. its that way all the time. i drive myself crazy.
i ESPECIALLY drive myself crazy with that whole other guy situation. the guy that i'll probably like until he graduates. the guy that might not even know my name. the guy that i've thought was cute since the first time i saw him. the guy that makes me smile when i see him. the guy that i like for no apparent reason. i mean seriously. all i really know about him is he plays basketball, he's older, he plays, well lets just say a sport other than basketball, he's funny, & he's single. & i just like him. i dont even know why. i guess its just one of those things.
dont you ever like someone without really knowing who they are? maybe thats why ive liked him for such a long time. he has no turnoffs ... because i havent had a conversation with him. but i will, eventually. like maybe when i have the balls to. which i will, eventually. hopefully soon. but then that will ruin the mystery of it all. i could find out that i dont like him. & then what? tha t would suck. i'm such a fcuking nerd.
anyways ... tomoro i have pole vaulting practice from 10-12. then my dad (or ellen) is taking me to wanjettes basketball practice from 1:30 to 3. then hopefully i'll go home & then PLEASE LORD i will see a movie with jennifuck, alex the azn conquerer, tar-asswipe, marietard fart-o, binkus bonehead, ina-dactyl, joanneissoadorable ... hahaha, i just like saying all of their nicknames ;D
this weekend looks like it will be ... horrible? just messing. kind of. i have my fun plans ... but i know that somehow my parents will fcuk them up. like always.
at least my grades havent dropped that much. all A's & A-'s, except for the B in religion. its kind of sad, because i think i have the highest grade in that class. doesnt look too bright.
to sum up the week in a word : stressful.
BOO for volleyball workouts at 6 in the morning, track practice until we're the only team left on the track, track meets where i dont even get opening height,essays & TP casts done into the wee hours of the morning (that are very poorly written), nights where i only get 4 hours of sleep, & parentals on my back for a fcuking B in religion ... ugh.
YAY for volleyball workouts making me very awake all day, substitute teachers, arguing about "root and foot", crazyhappyemo friends, lame sex jokes, boys & four day weekends.
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm
I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
♥"watch out ... fuki's gonna fuk you up!"
this whole freaking week i've been sick. cough cough. it really sucks ass, especially with volleyball & track.
speaking of track. i pole vaulted yesterday in my first ever meet. & i sucked ass. i cleared the damn pole ... but on my way down i hit it. so basically i didnt get past opening height. very disappointing.
you know what else is disappointing? me. every weekend i tell my friends that, "yeah lets go to the movies this weekend" but i always end up not following through. seriously though, its not my fault. its my parents fault. they provide me with no mode of transportation whatsoever, because why? stupid basketball.
speaking of stupid basketball - i have a game on sunday ! hoorah. we're playing up a division though ... against juniors ... i'm the only freshie on a sophomore team, & no offense, but we kind of are not a very good team. hooray for being hammered !
ughhhh. i am still very very confused about this whole boy situation. do i like him ? or do i not like him ? i cant make up my mind. my mind (& a lot of people around me) are telling me not to like him, & there are a lot of reasons why i shouldnt, the biggest reason being that we dont really talk to each other. talk about awkward. but theres a part of me that still has a crush on him, a part of me that still makes me glance over at him even though i try not to. its that way all the time. i drive myself crazy.
i ESPECIALLY drive myself crazy with that whole other guy situation. the guy that i'll probably like until he graduates. the guy that might not even know my name. the guy that i've thought was cute since the first time i saw him. the guy that makes me smile when i see him. the guy that i like for no apparent reason. i mean seriously. all i really know about him is he plays basketball, he's older, he plays, well lets just say a sport other than basketball, he's funny, & he's single. & i just like him. i dont even know why. i guess its just one of those things.
dont you ever like someone without really knowing who they are? maybe thats why ive liked him for such a long time. he has no turnoffs ... because i havent had a conversation with him. but i will, eventually. like maybe when i have the balls to. which i will, eventually. hopefully soon. but then that will ruin the mystery of it all. i could find out that i dont like him. & then what? tha t would suck. i'm such a fcuking nerd.
anyways ... tomoro i have pole vaulting practice from 10-12. then my dad (or ellen) is taking me to wanjettes basketball practice from 1:30 to 3. then hopefully i'll go home & then PLEASE LORD i will see a movie with jennifuck, alex the azn conquerer, tar-asswipe, marietard fart-o, binkus bonehead, ina-dactyl, joanneissoadorable ... hahaha, i just like saying all of their nicknames ;D
this weekend looks like it will be ... horrible? just messing. kind of. i have my fun plans ... but i know that somehow my parents will fcuk them up. like always.
at least my grades havent dropped that much. all A's & A-'s, except for the B in religion. its kind of sad, because i think i have the highest grade in that class. doesnt look too bright.
to sum up the week in a word : stressful.
BOO for volleyball workouts at 6 in the morning, track practice until we're the only team left on the track, track meets where i dont even get opening height,essays & TP casts done into the wee hours of the morning (that are very poorly written), nights where i only get 4 hours of sleep, & parentals on my back for a fcuking B in religion ... ugh.
YAY for volleyball workouts making me very awake all day, substitute teachers, arguing about "root and foot", crazyhappyemo friends, lame sex jokes, boys & four day weekends.
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I don't look
But deep inside the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm
I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
♥"watch out ... fuki's gonna fuk you up!"