traveling...swollowing..dramamine
Wow, so after another wonderful evening last night. I cant imagine being happier than that. Today on the other hand is literally just a train wreck. The day that I have had. I am so miserable right now I dont even know what to do. Oh my god just shoot me. I tried to go on a walk, but its drizzling really hard and its amazing that when you feel this shitty that when your walking you stop feeling the bitter cold because you just dont care. I would love to say I had amazing thoughts during my walk. I normally have wonderful creative thoughts during them. I usually feel alot better but tonight this one did nothihng for me but leave my feet and hands cold. I'm in pretty bad shape today. I didnt even eat...i still havent. I'm hungry but I just cant bring myself to eat anything. Ughhh theres so much I have to do now.
Why me? I mean really...what have I done? Normally I look at things with the aspect of this is just a day-it will pass you will feel better but not even thats working tonight. I'm not even tired which scares me because last time that happened i was up for 3 days and didnt go to sleep until gramma gave me one of her sleeping pills.
I might go find some advil PM's. The funny thing is, of all this happeneing...i'm not mad. I'm not mad...and that is so unlike me. I'm just really upset.