hero

Jul 24, 2006 15:56

As a little boy, I've always had a penchant to collect things. I didn't really have a criteria in collecting anything; I simply hunt for objects and gather them. Somethings were pretty useless like bottle caps or shiny pebbles but they were nice to look at from time to time. Action figures of superheroes were also part of my room's exhibit as a boy. From sheets to t-shirts to posters, my room used to be covered with nothing but the Man of Steel. I admired his strength and his decision-making abilities but I always felt sorry for him though too. Being a superhero, as fun as having the ability to fly or see through objects, obviously has its downsides. For me, Clark Kent never really had a personal life. He couldn't just decide to go on a road trip or to go on a vacation, for in any instant the villains could enter the scene and hurt innocent people. He doesn't really have the freedom that ordinary people did. Not only that, Clark will always have to feel guilty if something happened to someone he cared about under his watch. Now that's a lot of pressure and responsibility put on the shoulders of one person. Everybody says that they want to be Superman or Batman or Spider-man, etc, but when it comes down to it, do they really want to exchange their life for that of their admired superhero or do they simply want the powers and the perks involved in it?

Visiting my house and seeing my room again brought amazing memories back to mind. I remembered the time I also set the whole house on fire when I was "experimenting" with alcohol and matches. I'm pretty sure I was trying to make something useful but obviously that didn't work out too well. Luckily my dad came in time to smother the flames in our kitchen as I stood there, my mouth wide-open and tears streaming down my face, feeling helpless. He spanked me pretty hard after than incident and I tried not to shed more tears because I knew I deserved it. Afterwards he sat down next to me and told me that he hit me out of anger and relief, anger that I would do something stupid, but relief that I was actually there, alive. My father is my hero and in his case, I would be honoured to simply become half the man that he is now.

Jennifer's still filming here and even though she has a couple of long days, seeing her everyday brings such a relief. She's a constant reminder of how lucky I am, despite not having superpowers or being invincible. My family really is all I need to get through the day. Granted, a little whiskey and a cube of cheese from time to time would help.

The kids are motioning for me to come over and join them in one of the games that they've made up which probably involves me losing and them winning, but I really don't mind. I do have a question to leave though -If you could have one superpower, what would you want it to be and why?
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