Shit!
Today is another day and still the same shit. Derric and I are fighting again, I hate this. I try to tell him that I don't want to fight anymore and that I can't do this much longer, but I love him and know that leaving him would not be an option at this point in time. Lately, it seems like all we do is fight, how am I suppossed to handle this? He had me torn to pieces the other day that it took me hours to stop crying. How long can one actually continue with the same shit everyday, no matter how much you love them? He took me shopping the other day and I got a lid (hat), this happened the day after we had that huge fight. I don't know what to do anymore. Everytime I say something that I would like him to do or say, he thinks that I am comparing him to ex-boyfriends and then tells me to go back to them. What am I suppossed to do? I'm always telling him how much I love him and all that good stuff, I have never done him wrong. Is he insecure or what? I don't know. When I took him to work today we were fighting for like the 1,000,000 time this month. This shit sucks. I'm so confused, men are so fucking confusing. Of course, so are us women. I always wonder what it would be like if I was a lesbian, I mean girls understand girls better than they do guys, right...