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So, today was my 'staff day', which basically means I was being graded on how well I could manage as a staff in the room, and not a student teacher. And, I think it went well. I was super nervous about it. All morning, my stomach was hurting (which is how my body reacts to stress), so I knew I was anxious. But, I came in early (7:55), prepared my activity before my shift started (8:15), and just tried my best to stay on top of everything.
My problem is remembering the schedule. Last night and this morning I tried to review it, but it just wasn't sticking. There are so many things going on. So, instead of trying to remember the whole day, I just took out the schedule and checked what was happening whenever I had a break (so every few hours). It worked well, because Violet, one of the teachers, told me I was working hard, and that I did a good job. I was soo happy to hear it, because I get positive feedback so infrequently, that when I get it, it really means something to me. Also, it means that I was able to work through my anxiety, and demonstrate to the faculty that I have improved, and learned skills.
I have one week left of placement, and my final evaluation meeting with my field faculty. If I really make sure to have everything prepared for Monday, it shouldn't be a problem. I just need to make sure to not let my anxiety get in the way too much. So far my marks that I've received have been good, so I shouldn't worry, but I still do. I just can't help it.
Once my week is over, I am taking a week off, and then I start working. Just boring desk stuff, but it'll pay, so it's all good for one summer. I'll make like 5000 dollars, so it's definately worth it! I plan to spend about 500 of it this summer (massage therapy, going out, shopping, having fun), and save the rest for next fall when I go to university. It'll be nice to have some money of my own, that I earned myself. Then, I'm taking the last two weeks of August off to go to the cottage and get ready for school. I'm so grown up!
My problem is remembering the schedule. Last night and this morning I tried to review it, but it just wasn't sticking. There are so many things going on. So, instead of trying to remember the whole day, I just took out the schedule and checked what was happening whenever I had a break (so every few hours). It worked well, because Violet, one of the teachers, told me I was working hard, and that I did a good job. I was soo happy to hear it, because I get positive feedback so infrequently, that when I get it, it really means something to me. Also, it means that I was able to work through my anxiety, and demonstrate to the faculty that I have improved, and learned skills.
I have one week left of placement, and my final evaluation meeting with my field faculty. If I really make sure to have everything prepared for Monday, it shouldn't be a problem. I just need to make sure to not let my anxiety get in the way too much. So far my marks that I've received have been good, so I shouldn't worry, but I still do. I just can't help it.
Once my week is over, I am taking a week off, and then I start working. Just boring desk stuff, but it'll pay, so it's all good for one summer. I'll make like 5000 dollars, so it's definately worth it! I plan to spend about 500 of it this summer (massage therapy, going out, shopping, having fun), and save the rest for next fall when I go to university. It'll be nice to have some money of my own, that I earned myself. Then, I'm taking the last two weeks of August off to go to the cottage and get ready for school. I'm so grown up!