Trying to finish
So I've been writing this one entry for a couple days now. I guess this is what happens when you don't write forever. Things are good here at WCU...sometimes things get a little confused, though. I really think all of us need a break from everyone.
Alana and Dustin broke up the other day. I don't think she's taking it too well. I worry about her---she's fragile, even though she doesn't show it.
So, Dustin thought I was annoying in their relationship. He said that I tried to spend more time with Alana when they began dating. And James said I get like that when people come into my friend's lives. I don't quite agree with that, but I've been thinking about it.
Maybe I do spend too much time with him, maybe I do love him too much. Is there such a thing? I guess there is when someone doesn't love you as much, or even close to as much. Sam said James would have gotten up in the middle of the night to console me the other night when I was so upset. I don't think he would have. I thought about it, and I don't think I wanted him to. I didn't want him to have to fake being my best friend anymore. Maybe times just change...I didn't want him to know what I did. I always feel like we're kind of updating each other on shit that happened in our lives. It's really inconsequential...but I feel like we spend our time together talking about what has happened, not what we are. Maybe I'm a lunatic...
You know, I have so many other great things in my life. I don't know why it matters when just one thing goes wrong I get so upset. Like, just those two people's opinions of me really fucked me up. More than I expected I guess...it was rather scary. I haven't reacted like that in a long time and I'm rather disappointed in myself.
In other news, things really are good in my life.
My family is coming up tomorrow, which really rocks. I can't wait to see them!
I need some sleep for the App game because you know I'll be drunk as hell tomorrow night :)
Alana and Dustin broke up the other day. I don't think she's taking it too well. I worry about her---she's fragile, even though she doesn't show it.
So, Dustin thought I was annoying in their relationship. He said that I tried to spend more time with Alana when they began dating. And James said I get like that when people come into my friend's lives. I don't quite agree with that, but I've been thinking about it.
Maybe I do spend too much time with him, maybe I do love him too much. Is there such a thing? I guess there is when someone doesn't love you as much, or even close to as much. Sam said James would have gotten up in the middle of the night to console me the other night when I was so upset. I don't think he would have. I thought about it, and I don't think I wanted him to. I didn't want him to have to fake being my best friend anymore. Maybe times just change...I didn't want him to know what I did. I always feel like we're kind of updating each other on shit that happened in our lives. It's really inconsequential...but I feel like we spend our time together talking about what has happened, not what we are. Maybe I'm a lunatic...
You know, I have so many other great things in my life. I don't know why it matters when just one thing goes wrong I get so upset. Like, just those two people's opinions of me really fucked me up. More than I expected I guess...it was rather scary. I haven't reacted like that in a long time and I'm rather disappointed in myself.
In other news, things really are good in my life.
My family is coming up tomorrow, which really rocks. I can't wait to see them!
I need some sleep for the App game because you know I'll be drunk as hell tomorrow night :)