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Havn't updated too much recently so I'll go over some stuff thats happened over the past few days. Uh... schools still goin alright, some weird dress code modifercations but nothin drastic and no probs w/ hw or teachers, its all fine and dandy. Last saturday i did some cleaning and stuff to get ready for my grandpa comin to town, so that was mostly that day. Sunday went to church, really cool speaker, (sorry i sound so unemotional, i've got a pretty bad case of sleepiness). After church Laura and Jasmane came over and we did some talking and eating, and we were all gonna go skating but Jasmane had to go home like an hour before we went. So Laura and i had some fun cleaning out my randomness drawers. Amazing what you can find. We met up w/ pei ju and jordan at the iceskatin rink and skated till 730 ish and then we split again, came back a mi casa, and talked till Laura's father picked her up. Great day. Got some good sleep that night, and i really needed it, cuz i've been tired from soccer and school so, I was so happy Jasmane and Laura could come and we could talk and get stuff out, theyre always a big comfort. The rest of my week has been pretty normal. Church last nite was short but cool, and finding a copy machine turned out to be a pretty big adventure. I'm kinda in the school mode now, how it kinda zaps the energy outa you, seems like the work will never end, but this years already way diff than last year, it means alot more, not just doin the work and gettin the grades. Right now i really cant wait for Sunday, like, summer seemed like it was all church, somehow. And i just wanna get back there, to be protected, not out in this world that even Denbigh Baptist Christian School can be. But i know God wants me to be that light to the darkness, no matter how uncomfortable it makes you feel. Thats my biggest prayer now, that i dont fall into a feeling that i'm where i need to be and i dont need ot tell anyone about how awesome God is. God put such a call on my heart, i cant let it go, i wont, but there are times when it seems like so many people are against you and you just want to conform, cant happen tho, wont. God's still showing me how awesome He is every day, finished up Matthew in my quiet times, on to the next gospel, its so cool studying Jesus. Best role model to follow, even tho theres no way I could ever add up to Him, its a good good thing to strive for, not to add up to Him, but to follow the example He's set. I really wish everyone could see how awesome He is, my hearts so heavy for people i know that need Him and just wont accept it. Why!?! Why cant you see how much you need Him, how awesome He is, how much different your life would be if you just turned to Him? I wish i could cry enough to bring you to that point, but I cant. You've got to realize your need. Its so much better than what your life is now, i promise. Please...