This Is The End...
This will be my last entry ever and perhaps that last time some of you may hear anything out of me again.
We all know that everything comes to an end. I have always refused to believe that but everything is over and now everything and everyone is fake. I'll never have the other one back, him. Even if I keep trying. I'm not going to have those friends again and I miss them so much. There's going to be those things that I always wished I had said and never did and it's always going to be in the back of mind. I know it will be because, still now after all this time I still think about it constantly. I really wish I had made better decisions because maybe then I wouldn't feel to empty now.
Do you remember when we used to be on top, You still are and I have just faded into the back.
Sarah Baker- Thank you for always making me feel like I had someone at my worse times. I just think it's so strange that I could tell you anything no matter what because you would always be there for me and I could always trust you.
Theres only 4 left in the bottle, it can't do that much damage.
I really just wish I knew what the problem is. Everyone in the world is like this.? So why don't I see it.
"I walked around my good intentions and found that there were none"
IT'S SO FRUSTRATING!!!!
There is no point when no one even bothers.
Since when were people allowed to tell you how to feel or what's wrong with what you feel. People are so fucking dumb sometimes. Don't be so quick to judge, even more so when you dont know the situation.
I AM GOING TO MAKE THE CHANGES, I know I would feel better with out all of this.
And I know I am still in love, but I could be throwing my life away. I'll be a Mrs. But it's going to be one the BIGGEST let downs of my life.