The Voices Wont Stop
I seriously think I am schizophrenic. For the past couple months I keep on hearing voices in my head. My name being said over and over again, like people calling me. Tonight was really funny. I was working on the computer and listening to music. My dad was in the room next to me watching Television. I thought I hear my mom (who was'nt even home at the time) calling my name. I ignored it for awhile because I knew it probably really was'nt her and it was just me being retarded. After awhile I still heard my name and it sounded like my mom was getting really mad. So I started to yell at her and I was screaming "What the hell do you want from me? Just come down the stairs and freaking talk to me." My dad turned off the T.V. and asked me who I was talking to. I told him and he gave me this look like I was insane (which I think I am) and told me that my mom was'nt home and he hadn't heard anything except for the T.V. and my music. It's so annoying because this is'nt the first time that it's happened. What the hell is wrong with me!?
Tomorrow is my day off. I really would have liked to have done something tonight but I could'nt think of anything and to many people have been upsetting me lately. I think I'm just safer at home. I really miss some people though. Like Katiri, I have wanted to hang out with her for so long but between work and the lack of a car it's hard. I was driving my mom's car home from work today and I have to sort of go past Katiri's house, I wanted to stop by so bad but I could'nt for two reasons. One being that my mom would have had a heart attack if I didnt get the car home and two, I still am not sure which house she lives in. I'm sure I could find It but I would get lost first. That neighborhood scares me. So yeah...Katiri if you read this please call me. I also have to get my act together and get ahold of Steph and maybe Kristen, is she doesn't dislike me.
I need to do something more constructive with the little free time I have. Dan said he was going to lend me some books but he has'nt yet and that was a couple weeks ago.
He has now made me feel like a slut. Whatever came over me I wont know but there's no need for his selfishness. How inconsiderate. I may have lost another friend, and it hurts more each time.
Tomorrow is my day off. I really would have liked to have done something tonight but I could'nt think of anything and to many people have been upsetting me lately. I think I'm just safer at home. I really miss some people though. Like Katiri, I have wanted to hang out with her for so long but between work and the lack of a car it's hard. I was driving my mom's car home from work today and I have to sort of go past Katiri's house, I wanted to stop by so bad but I could'nt for two reasons. One being that my mom would have had a heart attack if I didnt get the car home and two, I still am not sure which house she lives in. I'm sure I could find It but I would get lost first. That neighborhood scares me. So yeah...Katiri if you read this please call me. I also have to get my act together and get ahold of Steph and maybe Kristen, is she doesn't dislike me.
I need to do something more constructive with the little free time I have. Dan said he was going to lend me some books but he has'nt yet and that was a couple weeks ago.
He has now made me feel like a slut. Whatever came over me I wont know but there's no need for his selfishness. How inconsiderate. I may have lost another friend, and it hurts more each time.