F.I.N.E.
i cant get into this much now because i might go out here but for the moment i am a real crabass! WHY? because i have a feeling that my friends will all leave my sorry single ass behind. i don't feel like explaining either cuz i don't fucking want to. i'm so sick and tired of this feeling that there is something wrong with me or that god hates me therefore i can't be content for more than a week. i can't be content at all apparently. something is eating away at me and it's ugly and i dont like it and i feel like i cant stop it. i just want something of my own! i can't stand the fact that no matter what the ppl around me have something to keep them going no matter what shit hits the fan. I DONT"T HAVE THIS! what the fuck is out there that can give me what i fucking need! I HATE LIVING LIFE AND NOT FEELING IT! I"M NOT OK BEING ALONE. I HAVE ISSUES WITH THIS! I CAN'T GET A FUCKING BREAK IN THIS WORLD!