1:41AM realizations
1. _____'s existence still catches me off guard.
2. i really hate that.
3. when is my life going to finally begin?
4. even though i go out most weekends my life is still very much boring.
5. i am content with staying at home and doing the things i want to do like read a book or just plain sit on my ass.
6. i wish i could be content and happy all the time.
7. i am getting very good at hiding my true feelings and i don't like that b/c that means i'm becoming a zombie.
8. i loathe zombies.
9. i hate it when ppl from your past come back and try to talk to you like you never grew apart.
10. i hate it when other ppl from your past don't talk to you b/c they don't care.
11. it's not about finding a boyfriend anymore. i could have had one. it's about finding someone i love and who loves me back.
12. i hate the times where i get so touchy that this shit still bothers me.
13. sometimes i just want to tell ppl to fuck off...even if they are my friends.
14. this might make me a bad person and if this is true i only slightly care.
15. i seriously have an urge to physically hurt ppl who have pissed me off or done stupid things.
16. all these bad feelings might actually mean something or might just stem from the fact that i haven't had a cigarette at all today....and that my friends is the real tragedy.
2. i really hate that.
3. when is my life going to finally begin?
4. even though i go out most weekends my life is still very much boring.
5. i am content with staying at home and doing the things i want to do like read a book or just plain sit on my ass.
6. i wish i could be content and happy all the time.
7. i am getting very good at hiding my true feelings and i don't like that b/c that means i'm becoming a zombie.
8. i loathe zombies.
9. i hate it when ppl from your past come back and try to talk to you like you never grew apart.
10. i hate it when other ppl from your past don't talk to you b/c they don't care.
11. it's not about finding a boyfriend anymore. i could have had one. it's about finding someone i love and who loves me back.
12. i hate the times where i get so touchy that this shit still bothers me.
13. sometimes i just want to tell ppl to fuck off...even if they are my friends.
14. this might make me a bad person and if this is true i only slightly care.
15. i seriously have an urge to physically hurt ppl who have pissed me off or done stupid things.
16. all these bad feelings might actually mean something or might just stem from the fact that i haven't had a cigarette at all today....and that my friends is the real tragedy.