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june 25th everyone. today is the day my mom saw me smoking. she sat me down and we had the most intense talk of my life relating to the reasoning behind my smoking. almost the entire reason why i smoke is fear of failure. i never thought i minded failing but when my mom and i we're talking and i was shaking at the thought of failing at quitting i thought it was a good indicator. basically the jist is that my mom says the smoking stops now. and for the first time i'm not subconciously laughing at the idea of quitting. i'm offically a member of quitnet.com and my "quit date" is set for july 4th. i'm so determined to do it that i could explode. i'm just warning all friends and family that there will be significant changes in personality over the next couple of weeks. i've been a heavy smoker for a year and i don't believe in using other medications to make me stop this one. it's all on me and lets just say i hope i don't fail because cocaine can get pricey.
...lets just hope he's worth it
...lets just hope he's worth it